Do Any Of You

[Gs172003]

Get a flashback that's like a vague "gif" that you can barely tell what it is and it just repeats? I think what I saw was my dad beating up my mom but I'm not sure. She'll never in a million years confirm that. It came after something my husband said.

 

[Silver.]

I had an incident years ago where I passed out at my job due to one of the duties they gave us, and woke up and couldn't remember anything.
(my sister will be telling me a story, and I will be laughing my ass off, and she will say "you don't remember do you"...nope lol)

But a good portion of things did come back. But I do have flickers of incidents, things I am trying to fully grasp, but cannot. So I think I know what you are talking about. I think even if I hadn't lost and then regained memory, that trauma would make me forget certain things, only to get a flash of the memory here and there.

 

[Gs172003]

I had an incident years ago where I passed out at my job due to one of the duties they gave us, and wok...

Thank you. That's what I'm talking about. Very helpful.

 

[Silver.]

:hug:

 

[Dan28]

Not consistently, but I have had specific times that this has happened. In particular, I was reading a book once and when I read a particular phrase I literally flashed back and was at a table (childhood) with my parents saying the exact phrase I had just read. It was actually my mind opening a repressed memory per se, but the hardest part was the coinciding emotional flashback that occurred; this went unaddressed until I was diagnosed with C-PTSD.

Best of luck to you and take care!

 

[Gs172003]

Not consistently, but I have had specific times that this has happened. In particular, I was reading a bo...

Thank you. I would have been younger than 5 I guess my parents divorced after that.

 

[Gs172003]

Not consistently, but I have had specific times that this has happened. In particular, I was reading a bo...

Thank you. That sounds very similar

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

...you can barely tell what it is and it just repeats? I think what I saw was my dad beating up my mom but I'm not sure.

Suppressed/repressed/dissociated memories sometimes initially pop up in abbreviated fashion. Sometimes it first appears in this fashion to keep the survivor from being overwhelmed by the complete memory. In your case, perhaps the memory is abbreviated and confused because you were so young at the time.

 

[Jung in the JUNGle]

the value of the trauma function is that it allows a temporary 'parking' of something too emotionally dramatic to deal with in its whole.

Much of the work i do with Vets with PTSD is so graphic it is like peeling away layers of jumbled up memories. Depending on the severity of the trauma experience it can take years of unraveling to finally get to the core hidden message. Once that is done though the re-occurence can be treated simply as an old memory and not a danger impacting you in the 'here and now'.

In severe flashbacks the body becomes errantly convinced it is in danger and that triggers a biological 'fight or flight'. But psychology offers a path between the extremes where you can engage with the wound, have compassion for yourself and allow the resurfacing of these memories to help you build a holistic view of the repressed material