I used to hang on to the same thing
@Angelwings . The love of my children. It's been what drives my recovery and survival.
I do yoga, arts, aromatherapy, NIA, TRE, all of which give me a sense of presence, recovery and self.
I finally met someone who I could form a secure attachment to too.
What you are experiencing is common, it's known as derealization, I think it's like long term shock, a coping mechanism.
I used to not feel like a person, for the longest time. I'm 45 now, I'm starting to get a sense of myself as a person.
I had to leave all the abuser/invalidaters behind though.
