Do We Have A Right To Feel Happy?

[4L150N]

Personally, I'm terrified of being happy. On any level, for any amount of time. I can't honestly say that depression is the better option, however it's one I'm far more comfortable with, and comes with less chances of being disappointed. Kind of like when I sit on the floor instead of a chair.... I can't fall off the floor... as soon as I feel anything better than numb or depressed I'm scared of falling back down.

 

[Eleanor]

Angel :(. I hear you about the emotion thing. Rats, sometime you can sneak up on it with logic:whistling:.

How horrible that training can be used for such a lousy purpose. My old T said my ex-H was an "emotional vampire," which I think was a bit strong in his case, but sounds spot on for your mother. I'm glad you got something out of the visit.:tdown::eek::O_o: At least now you have a clear idea of the origin of your feeling that you shouldn't be happy. The anxiety was (once) perfectly realistic. It is now an anachronism, but still a habit that needs retraining. You are not crazy tho. Not even close.

Really very creepy. Ick.:sick:

 

[Philippa]

We have a right to feel whatever we are feeling at any given moment...including happy.

Convincing ourselves that we deserve to be happy and feel happiness, is another matter alltogether.

I still don't feel that comfortable with happy. Depression, sadness...these things come much easier to me, and there is a certain safety in that...and comfort. But I know that is kinda f*cked up, so I work on changing that limiting belief and re-programming my mind as best I can.

I have been quite joyful the last week, and the other day I did hear a little voice in my mind say "you're a bit too happy...better take it down a notch"...which is pretty f*cked up! Today I was back at being sad and upset, and hurt.

I'd like to get to a point one day, where it feels just as normal and comfortable to be happy as it does to feel sad.

 

[Chincho]

I can't remember the last time I was truly happy, if ever. Cheerful, yes, but happy I don't think so.