Do You Grieve Differently With Ptsd Then Before It?

[Forgetful]

Britt.f7 thank you for your reply. It is helpful. This has bothered me for a long time. I always thought that there must be either something seriously wrong with me and if I mentioned it to anybody they would now know it too. I don't think I've ever felt like a cold hearted, uncaring person in any other situation. Any way thank you for explaining it to me. You've given me a little peace of mind and a different way to look at it.

 

[Tinyflame]

Snafu it doesn't mean you didn't love them, as britt said, not at all. I was very close to my dad and only cried privately very little. Thirteen years later I did (for him) after my mom died and it was father's day. I did not expect it at all, it was an eye-opener. I fear I betrayed something too, I even fear I wouldn't recognize him if there is something after, or wouldn't want to, or he wouldn't want to see me. :(

If anything I think it's 'too painful' for our hearts to acknowledge the grief/ loss. And there is so much to be done, and it seems other's grief and not wanting to add grief to them, or not having your own environment to have it accepted if it is expressed, all can contirbute. Paradoxically you may grieve in the future, but it will be when you are able.

Hugs to all, am sorry for your losses @roaminggnome , @novemberDark , @Snafu , @britt and all. :hug: