Grama-Herc
Diamond Member
I know that the terror memories are trying to make their way to the suface of my mind. I am having night terrors and a lot of mid night sweating and last night I walked in my sleep. That scares me more than anything. But back to subject!
I'm conscious of dreaming about depressing things and being depressed, but I still have no clue of the subject matter. Waking up depressed when I have a cool day to look forward to is just plain crappy. Been trying for 3 hours to get myself out of this funk and get happy and motivated to go out and follow my plans for the day.
So are my dreams a big reason for my depression. I'm on meds--like it or not--and have been since my hospital stay years ago. I know the stress of caring for mother is taking it's toll, but as I get use to her lack of memory due to aging, the task is getting easier and we have started enjoying eachother again. So I don't think that is the source of my current depression.
I'm just so dam tired of feeling like this. Is it to much to ask, to just BE HAPPY? I have no reason to not be happy and every reason to BE HAPPY!! So what is goinng on in my brain or is my brain even "going on" ?
I'm conscious of dreaming about depressing things and being depressed, but I still have no clue of the subject matter. Waking up depressed when I have a cool day to look forward to is just plain crappy. Been trying for 3 hours to get myself out of this funk and get happy and motivated to go out and follow my plans for the day.
So are my dreams a big reason for my depression. I'm on meds--like it or not--and have been since my hospital stay years ago. I know the stress of caring for mother is taking it's toll, but as I get use to her lack of memory due to aging, the task is getting easier and we have started enjoying eachother again. So I don't think that is the source of my current depression.
I'm just so dam tired of feeling like this. Is it to much to ask, to just BE HAPPY? I have no reason to not be happy and every reason to BE HAPPY!! So what is goinng on in my brain or is my brain even "going on" ?