I'm a self described music nut...I am not real sure it hasn't sometimes hindered me in someways.
I've used it to shut out the demons, quiet my mind, and generally drown when I could have been working on shit. Louder the better. More often the better. Tour here, tour there. I made a living of it. I hadn't even considered that it was my drug of choice until a few weeks ago when the EMDR doc asked me what I was addicted to. I laughed at him...me? Addicted? hah... Drugs and Alcohol don't work for me, I thought I told you that. They don't provide enough coverage. A little light went on in my head...and I thought of TOOL. Now there's some visceral coverage of my numb.
"Choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside...
This body holding me, reminding me that I am not alone in
This body, makes me feel eternal."
Been listening to "Parabola" for years...and it only dawns on me after that appointment that the g-dam song is about not being numb anymore...
I am always....
"Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must
Feed my will to feel this moment....."
~Lateralus