Does No One Sympathize?

[Britt.f7]

New Gamma Rays, you have to realize that you can not depend on your parents, and, possibly, your family. They've obviously set their limitations without regard to how it effects you. This is a difficult realization for anyone. You need to find a way to take care of yourself without them. I know this is hard. When I came to the final realization of my parent's limitations, though I think I had inklings all along, it was very heartbreaking for me.

I think my limiting my interactions with my mom started bringing her back around. But it took me quite awhile to accept it. When I finally did, there was still caution.

My heart goes to you as you brave this difficult time.

 

[new gamma rays]

The Problem is I have a serious chronic illness, that I've had for three years and still have. And my parents efforts got me thrown into the hells of involuntary psych system instead. And my mom will have nothing to do with me. My dad walks over mountains for me, and I can't blame him if his patience is wearing thin, but its not exactly like I can just huck it on my own. I need my parents to help me. I've had the terror of them throwing me into an ER when i was emotionally distressed instead, and the resulting PTSD terror that that triggered is what got me sent back into the involuntary psych system AGAIN at exactly this time last year.

I have nothing left but to just dream of ending my life at some point, because even if I escape this nightmare I have plenty more to come. And you'd think it would be too much to ask for my mom to accept some responsibility. Sadly I've seen the same exact situation happen before, but those people didn't have a chronic illness. But the system really doesn't discriminate against parents who take horrible actions against their children.

 

[new gamma rays]

I'm just worn out and defeated right now, too scared to make any move. I've just been feeling beaten up with my parents completely gone (and angry, alone etc.) and this whole week has just made me so drained to take any positive action. There's a therapy intern that comes twice a week and he's sitting in the office but I don't want to talk to him. I want to just get out of here, but then I feel too scared about the problems that keep accumulating in the back of my mind.