Does this count as trauma?

[Survivor3]

World of warcraft. My mom bought it for me a couple days ago. I used to play it alot when I got home from iraq. I built a pc 6 or 7 years ago and I have that.

Supercool. I also used to play alot of video games on xbox. Made some friends aswell. Glad your enjoying it.

 

[Workingonit]

Supercool. I also used to play alot of video games on xbox. Made some friends aswell. Glad your enjoying it.

I feel like a dirt bag for playing it but it helps with not thinking about life.

 

[Survivor3]

I feel like a dirt bag for playing it but it helps with not thinking about life.

That's a very good reason for playing it though. Gives you something to focus on whilst using your cognitive ability and being social.

 

[Workingonit]

I had no tinnitus yesterday for the first time in over a month but its back now. This shits so weird. It messes with my head.

 

[Tinyflame]

Actually @Survivor3 is right, it's recommended to do stuff like that when you need it @Workingonit . Helps to heal the nervous system too.

 

[Workingonit]

My va evaluation is at 530. I'm stuck. If my brother wasn't taking me I doubt that I would go.

 

[Workingonit]

I really f*cking hate feeling like this. I feel crazy.

 

[Survivor3]

I really f*cking hate feeling like this. I feel crazy.

Do you have to go to an assessment?

 

[Workingonit]

Do you have to go to an assessment?

Ya. I just got back. Some kind of second opinion. Idk.

 

[Workingonit]

I've been trying to process my va evaluation. The lady was super nice. I think I kinda checked out while talking about iraq. She had this big pamphlet for us to go thru. But we only made it a couple pages in and then she started filling it out for me and cut the evaluation short. I told her there was more but she said that she had heard enough and stopped the evaluation. Idk. I did my best not to cry and was able to stop the tears. Idk.

 

[Friday]

My va evaluation is at 530. I'm stuck. If my brother wasn't taking me I doubt that I would go.

I’ve never gone.

I did mercenary shit, after discharge, which normalizes the idea of NOT counting on your country to take care of you (like they do in the UK/AU/Most other first world countries except the US… and Denmark, Switzerland, etc. that mostly use mercenaries & as such are due “nothing” beyond what the avg citizen is dire… which is still more than the US grants it’s vets. ).

I never even claimed my GI Bill benefits. Just because? I. Could. Not. Handle. The. VA.

You did.

Hell yeah. Good on.

As a solo-indivudal you took on a country whose motto is “When it absolutely, positively, has to be destroyed… overnight.” And did battle with it.

I am always AWED by the people who attempt it.

That’s no small feat.

Good on.

 

[DarkVixen]

All you can do is be honest. It's hard I know cause you trigger yourself when talking about stuff. My therapist told me just be honest when I had my psych report done and yeah rambling has got to be in there for PTSD cause the lady evaluating me didn't think I was crazy. She pretty much came to the conclusion that I have been through a lot and that would make sense why I'm suffering from PTSD and thats what her diagnosis was. So rambling I don't think is going to hurt your evaluation. In fact it might only help confirm you have PTSD. Good luck.