Doubt

[Deleted member 12723]

I think you are perfectly normal for what you have been through. I think the out of place feeling is normal. I have felt it too. I regret that I used to tell people that I was emotionally retarded thinking it would help them understand me. Now I just think I am normal for what I have been through. I hope this will happen for you too.

Ptsd is a liar and it lies to us all of the time.

 

[timid_flower]

Does anyone else feel this way sometimes?

You are definitely not alone with these feelings. I often feel the same way. I unfortunately don't remember the person I was before the trauma, as I was a child. My psychiatrist would tell me that the person I was before the trauma is gone, that I will never be that person again. A year ago those words made me feel hopeless, sometimes they still do. But maybe the trick is to stop trying to fit what we think the standard for normal is, and try to redefine for ourselves.

To me, my ups and downs are normal. Trying to keep my emotions and symptoms in check is normal. I have my good days and my bad days. heck, sometimes it changes by the minute. Lately I've had more bad than good, but I think even people without PTSD feel crazy sometimes. So i guess we just have to keep trying.
Then again, maybe it's just the sleep deprivation talking :)