Drawn To Danger

[Nellie]

Hehe, balance has never been my strong point! Thanks for all of your contributions, it's so interesting to hear other peoples' perspectives :)

 

[Spiderallis]

It comes in waves for me, not constant but once in a while there's just that craving for chaos. It's familiar, it's not that I want the dangerous risks, I want what I'm used to. This 'ordinary' life stuff still feels funny, when I'm off balance it's quite tempting to seek out situations that are off-balance too. If the whole world turns sideways, it's okay to stumble. The stability throws me off. Haven't figured out a healthier alternative to the bizarre brainstorms I come up with yet, but I'm trying to find a safer, synthetic chaos.

 

[Barconian]

Hehe, balance has never been my strong point!

lol me neither. Albeit, it's very handy to learn

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

I've shown some idiotic road behavior once or twice (on bike) because I didn't care anymore.

Other than that the skydive but it's different, I see skydiving as a challenge to confront and not as a danger. Doing that kind of thing for me kind of proves to myself that I can handle anything. Maybe proving to myself that I am courageous.

 

[Hashi]

Could it also be a distraction/avoidance? Especially if you're choosing it over relaxation. I don't do drama with people, but I'm good at creating chaotic situations which take my attention and then I don't have to think about my deeper issues.

 

[Barconian]

I've shown some idiotic road behavior once or twice (on bike) because I didn't care anymore.

I cared, "but" the thrill on the bike is just too much fun!!!

 

[Lost Pup]

Curious - how many others here have ridden a motorcycle? One of the few places where my vigilance was extremely, extremely helpful. I must say I miss riding one so much.

 

[Nellie]

I just got my motorcycle license and am about to embark on an off-road motorcycle adventure in Colombia haha! Radise, I've skydived and never really saw it as a risk-taking behaviour either. Hashi, I'm sure that's part of it. I never really thought of it like that. If I'm living in fear I don't have time to stop and think about things...

 

[Lost Pup]

Motorcycle thru Colombia? So jealous.....

 

[WillyKat]

I was in Death Valley a couple years ago and became lustful of all the BMW GS-series motorcycles I saw there. Seemed like the way to go. Hard to avoid all the potholes in a four-wheeled vehicle.

 

[Abstract]

I think doing dangerous things for me was mostly about not feeling real and not really having a sense of danger in some respects. I never used to think of myself as seeking out danger but in retrospect it added up to that even though it wasn't conscious.

I do think we sometimes seek out what feels familiar. It's also possible that self destructive tendencies are partly about feeling that that is what we deserve. I wonder if seeking out dangerous situations potentially falls along next to other self destructive behaviours. That there is also a release of adrenaline involved in a sense.

I don't know but do know I was always pushing the boundaries. Always the one furthest out when swimming, the one hanging over the cliff edge, the one climbing to the top of the tree and hanging upsidedown. Sometimes it was even a type of passive suicidal behaviour for me.

 

[Barconian]

I don't know but do know I was always pushing the boundaries. Always the one furthest out when swimming, the one hanging over the cliff edge, the one climbing to the top of the tree and hanging upsidedown. Sometimes it was even a type of passive suicidal behaviour for me.

Or were you just an adventurous tomboy? :D