Easily Offended And Hate It!

[anthony]

PTSD equals heightened emotional responses, ie. anger, rage, etc.

I am the same, I used to be coated in teflon... just didn't care, then when everything went to crap with me, uncontrolled PTSD, I tore into a person, did bad things to them, etc... whether provoked or not. Took many years of self behavioral control, replacing negative behaviour with positives, to be where I am now... not quite what I used to be, but also nothing like when PTSD was uncontrolled with me. Years of work... and I still work on it today.

Choice... when to walk away, when to respond, when to choose carefully the words, when to just let it all fly... all perfectly normal, and not just PTSD... but the anger components, if not present prior, PTSD.

 

[Grace11]

Philllipa, I am the same way. I almost quoted your post in my reply, but I would have quoted almost the entire thing....I hate it, too....you are not alone.

 

[Philippa]

So it really is all in the brain.

I thought i had brain damage after i wigged out when i stopped taking the meds. I thought it was just all the drugs from when I was in my early twenties had caught up with me, and even before I was traumatized I had researched all the anti-depressants and wanted nothing to do with any of it, and knew about the importance of keeping the brain chemistry regular on them, and not to just stop...but when I was actually on them, I just didn't care, or didn't seem to remember that it was bad to just stop abruptly.

I'm getting better at walking away from anything that I suspect will turn into a shitstorm, but sometimes I let it get the better of me.

It's so helpful to hear that you have been through this too anthony. It's good to hear that others have as well, but from someone who is a bit further gone in their recovery and as well researched as you, it's very re-assuring, thanks.

 

[Philippa]

Philllipa, I am the same way. I almost quoted your post in my reply, but I would have quoted almost the entire thing....I hate it, too....you are not alone.

Thankyou. There was this little voice in my head telling me this for a few years before I found this website...and now I know it's true. I'm really not alone. It's upsetting but also re-assuring.

 

[anthony]

The scary part about the chemical imbalance debate which leads into brain damage, is that there is zero evidence that a chemical imbalance occurs outside of what pharmaceutical companies have provided as a backing for their medication.

The best part about the brain, is that with every aspect that occurs, it can be undone through proven techniques. We once thought when a brain cell died, it was all over... but that is no longer fact at all, and quite the opposite, in that neuro-imaging has defined quite differently, hence how we now have terms like, neuroplasticity and malleable being used to describe the brain. Neuro-imaging has proven that damaged brain cells can reform, new cells grow, etc etc. There events are proven to occur through psycho-therapeutic methods, medications, exercise, talking, brain exercises and lots of other methods.

It has also been proven that brain regrowth is not dependent on age, race or sex, and can reform from youth to aged.

 

[Philippa]

That's really something eh? makes me glad to be alive in this time of the worlds history. Too bad for all the people from the past who never had this information or even knew about ptsd and were just locked up in mental wards. Then again, being a woman, I may have been locked up just for having PMS about 60 years ago.;)

I just hope it isn't like the soy bean thing, or any of the other things they release as having been 'proven' only to tell us 10 years later "oh, it's really not...oops!":rolleyes:

The brain's so amazing, and there are so many trillions of cells that even if a few million do die and weren't able to regenerate, it's still possible to build new neural pathways with the other trillion or so that haven't been damaged. It gives us hope.

It is scary about the chemical imbalance debate though, considering most people these days just accept that as the truth of things. It's just a business to the pharma companies and doctors. I've met people who worked in those pharmaceutical companies and this one woman confirmed that they really do give away all-expenses paid holidays to the Bahamas, to the doctor who writes the most prescriptions...as if they need the extra incentive...with their salaries.

 

[anthony]

Makes me glad to be alive in this time of the worlds history. Too bad for all the people from the past who never had this information or even knew about ptsd and were just locked up in mental wards.

The military used to just shoot them as cowardice... :cautious:

 

[Grace11]

The brain's so amazing, and there are so many trillions of cells that even if a few million do die and weren't able to regenerate, it's still possible to build new neural pathways with the other trillion or so that haven't been damaged. It gives us hope.

It truly is amazing and I find the more I research the science behind PTSD, the more it makes sense to me. The brain is incredible, even though it throws us some major curveballs. Or maybe because it does...

 

[Philippa]

The military used to just shoot them as cowardice... :cautious:

:eek:

 

[Grace11]

Am I proud of it? NOt really. But I don't cry over it either.

Yes I think that you are hypersensitive, by your own description, and if you don't like the feedback don't come back like you did. You talked of how you used to be thick skinned and what others said didn't affect you. Now it does. Why is it you are thin-skinned? I do not see hypervigilance as the cause, but hypersensitivity.

Why do you say so? I am curious as to what brings you to this conclusion.

 

[anthony]

I would agree that hyper-vigilance is not the cause of sensitivity. The cause of sensitivity is also not IMHO, hypersensitivity either in correlation with PTSD, but more due to the core of emotion that PTSD entails, being negative emotion over positive, so we become easily upset for no apparent reason. It comes back to the toilet paper roll being the wrong way round and suddenly you go off in anger. It has nothing to do with the toilet paper roll, but more simply your internal cup of stress is full, so what looks like hypersensitivity is more apt a foundation that is PTSD at the anxiety core.

 

[Deleted member 487]

Thankyou for your input.

I don't think I mentioned any correlation between this issue and hyper-vigilance though, so I'm not sure why you kept mentioning it in your last post?

My error actually. Sorry about that.

It's you're opinion and perhaps you are right, and I am hyper-sensitive, or have become this way since I was traumatized...so what?

Sometimes I get wrapped up in my own thoughts, to the point that sometimes I don't let it go. And really, I was hyper sensitive for a long time. Then I "grew a pair" and took a total 180* turn. If anyone said anything that I interpreted as an attempt to offend, I'd call them out for a fight. Now, nothing like that. Though I won't hesitate to give them the finger.

The question is, how can I start to develop a thicker skin now, in the present? That's what interests me, not labels.

Hmmm. That's hard. It really is.