Sounds like you are taking so many great steps
@Marymickaela!
Yeah, not he Vyvanse and Klonopin, as well as pretty much every antidepressant on the market, have a lot of withdrawal effects that can put people in states where they are more likely to melt down. The worst of Vyvanse withdrawal tends to pass in about two weeks, but this can vary wildly.
I'm not bipolar, and yet when I have taken Klonopin, I get rebound anxiety that makes me spin. That's just from 1 dose, months apart.
I'm glad you called your therapist. I tried talk therapy for years, and it helped, but not much. When I got into therapy to specifically process and integrate the trauma through a form of somatic experiencing (which is kind of like EMDR without the bilateral stimulation) I have been able to work through a lot more in months than I did in years of talking! It's amazing!
It seems like your daughter missed the forest for the trees in a big way. :( I bet you asked for her feedback because you trusted her to some degree, and you didn't want to get hurt by saying too much and getting overly criticized by people for it - exactly what she is doing now.
It seems like she probably went a bit overboard, and missed the fact that her mom has been hurting and has been through one hell of a year. Just a torn retina is a lot to deal with!
I told my brother once that he could give me feedback on how I handled family matters. Then one day, when I was in a lot of pain over family stuff, I post one comment on Facebook for about 10 minutes, then deleted it and he called me and railed into me. He totally missed that FB posts or not, I was really in a lot of pain and my family was being stupid.
If he had just spent even a few minutes validating the deep pain I was in and supporting me around that, I don't think it would have hurt so bad if he would have them said hey, that one post probably went a little too far. Just my opinion.
I can relate to feeling like being treated like a child... When my bother railed into me, I kept feeling like he was acting very paternalistic, like he was scolding me like a child. Later on I realized that while he was being a total jerk, he probably did actually feel protective of me. It all actually still affects our relationship now.
It's easy for people to get weirdly super opinionated about FB posts of family or anyone else. I hope you and your daughter get a chance to regroup and that she begins to see the bigger picture better.
It sucks to lose all the posts in a moment of impulsivity. :( Try not to make the same error she had made, and the same error my brother and I made, and get caught up on what is and isn't done on FB - but focus on the forest, which may be that you have been through one heck of a crappy year and could use some more support around all of it. Not having family turn into FB police!
It doesn't sound weird at all to think that your therapy has jumped forward. That's a great perspective to have!
