Emotions

[combatgoldfish]

I'm a light weight as far as medication is concerned. I take a traz and it knocks me out hard.

 

[tho9900]

thats my plan... no need to take the liquid sleeping pills then (alcohol) I dunno I never dream anymore so don't know why I dont wanna go to sleep

 

[combatgoldfish]

I usually only know if I was dreaming if I wake up screaming, in a cold sweat, or my ol' lady tells me I was calling out commands in my sleep lol.

It's hard to go to sleep when you're hyperventilate all day. I barely let me guard down when I lay down in bed. I have my handgun next to me, flashlight, extra mag, and my clothes/shoes positioned just right in case I need to go outside.

 

[tho9900]

that was me back in the 90's goldfish... ended up with a unlawful carrying of a weapon and a DWI so not even gonna try to get another handgun...

Nic went to visit some relatives and I was house sitting for her.. I was watching TV and suddenly it was like the hair was standing up on my neck... I suddenly realized the same car had gone by in front of the house 3 times, I could tell by the engine/tire sound.. next thing you know lights out, TV off, the only thing she had was butcher knives so had 2 of em... sat next to the window watching for the glow of headlights.. saw the same car 2 more times... thnk that is what led to the incident that put me in the doghouse with her...

no sleep for a week or more after that...

and ya even tho I need it cuz lack of sleep is causing the depression and anger to increase, I remember the dreams... I know I know I know H2OH is the worst thing in the world for the beast... but I sleep.. feel "somewhat rested" but it never let's me reach REM sleep... Trazadone has me in REM in like 30 min... and sometimes it's hard to swim up from the deep end of the pool with the Trazadone holding you down.. and bad analogy after last Sat but best way I can describe it...