Childhood Engraved memories

[Deleted member 38906]

I have memories involving a sexual incident between me and my dad from when i was about 3. i want to talk about this with my T but feel really awkward bringing it up bc i dont know how reliable my memory is. if i bring it up, i have a feeling ill be consumed with immense guilt for accusing my dad of something im not sure of. how do i make it less awkward for myself?

 

[NightSky]

I have this same issue as I’m not sure how reliable my csa memories are and I always feel guilty talking about them, afraid I’m falsely accusing someone. But since therapy is for YOU and the memory clearly holds some weight, it’s important for you to talk about. You can always preface it by outlining your concerns. Tell your T how you’re feeling- “I’m aftaid to bring something up as I’m not sure how reliable it is...” and go from there. Do it for you. And try not to let guilt interfere. The therapy space is yours where you get to hash all of this out without concern for anyone else.

 

[Deleted member 38906]

Thanks I'll try to think of it that way. I guess the worst part for me isls that I have a feeling the abusive part will start tormenting me after I leave the session. To punish me I think for being selfish.

 

[NightSky]

Talk about that, too. Let your T know what you think will happen as a result of you talking and ask for ways to handle it.