Everything i have to say seems stupid

[mylunareclipse]

Thank you @NightSky . I have read some about IFS and yes it can be helpful! As you say I have no self-compassion for myself. Though honestly it's not all the time now. It's in those particular moments when I am talking about "hard" stuff lol. And it was kind of ironic because I was talking about how I felt invisible, unloved and unimportant as a child and as soon as I was done reading I spurted out "this is dumb, this is stupid, this is overly dramatic"... I was treating myself in the exact same way I was treated as a child. I was even using the same words and I wasn't aware I was doing so until looking back later. This wasn't even my voice I realized. This was the voice I heard as a child. The words that I heard over and over.
@brat17 ...I can totally relate. I did get better and had more self-compassion later on, but last few years due to some abusive relationships I feel the same. I feel that I cannot do anything right. It's very hard to describe to someone who hasn't experinced it, but it's gotten to my head. I feel that I am incapable and evil/mean. And though somewhere in my brain that this is not how I have always felt about myself, there's always that voice that says "who are you kidding". ... I hope you can find the energy to fight again and to find compassion for your self! You deserve it.

 

[mamachick]

wishforescape-my feelings came after abuse too. It does really get into your head and particularly if you are in a vulnerable place. My inner voice tells me I am not evil and mean but I may be viewed that way by others, and condemned by others due to my withdrawing from abusive people and personal choice, often not to explain things to those who have deaf ears. Im not real religious but am more spiritual and believe in doing the right thing and sometimes it is just withdrawal from the drama.