Everythings Wonderful And Then Bang

[Lucille]

First of all, I love the title of this post. I can relate a lot.

And I have the same sort of memory about my trauma. We were all laughing... and then, I was being assaulted. I'm not sure I'll ever understand how that happens or why...

Will write more later hopefully

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

I can relate to this as well. The feelings of happiness in a domestic violence relationship are so overwhelming. The abuser is wonderful and you are so in love, then the bad side shows. I am not a fan of feeling 'happy' either.

Hope this helps.
PerfectlyFlawed.

 

[Tinyflame]

Not just domestic violence- it can be 'regular' natural catastrophies deaths etc.

 

[soulofLC]

Soul of LC: I'm with you on the sabotaging a career. I once and actually more than several times said that "No one had the right to hate me as much as I hated myself."

Yes, and the hardest person to forgive is yourself. But I am working on it. Live can be lived without the "mandate" accomplished. But I would rather have had it the other way, given the choice.

Sorry this happened to you too, LittleBear. (((Hugs)))

 

[Lucille]

I too am my toughest critic. I was always that way, but PTSD has made it worse since I literally cannot hear or absorb people who are trying to compliment/support/encourage me. It's like they're talking in another language or something.

I too self-sabotage, but I usually choose the "tough girl" approach which repels people...