My sufferer and I dated on and off for about 2 years in our 20s. We were long distance. He would sometimes pull away and shut me out back then too. He popped in and out of my life. I just accepted it because of the distance. He didn't know he had PTSD back then. I always had feelings for him from the time I first met him. Eventually we lost touch.
About 8 years ago I found him on Facebook. We were both married and I had a daughter in high school. He was very happy to reconnect and for a long time we kept it just friends. Eventually he started bringing up things from our past. My marriage was failing but I hadn't told him. He kept bringing up the past which confused me because he was still married. Then he told me he was getting divorced. It wasn't long after that things changed. I had never forgotten him and he hadn't forgotten me.
We are longer distance now then we were then. We need to fly to see each other. We each have family where the other lives. When we reconnected physically it felt exactly the same. We always had a chemistry. He was worried because he had gained a lot of weight but he looked the same to me. I mean, I could see what he looked like now, but I still see him at 22.
He told me about his PTSD when his behavior started to change and I was ready to leave. And yes, I love him. I don't say that because it seems to make him run more. So now I take it day by day. It's hard, I'm never sure what to think. We are long distance so I just live my life here and hope to hear from him. There was I time that I would have turned my life upside down for him, but not now. Now I don't know when he stops texting if I'll ever hear from him again. So I just live my life and let him be as much or as little a part of it as he wants. I don't know how long I can do this do I take it day by day.
About 8 years ago I found him on Facebook. We were both married and I had a daughter in high school. He was very happy to reconnect and for a long time we kept it just friends. Eventually he started bringing up things from our past. My marriage was failing but I hadn't told him. He kept bringing up the past which confused me because he was still married. Then he told me he was getting divorced. It wasn't long after that things changed. I had never forgotten him and he hadn't forgotten me.
We are longer distance now then we were then. We need to fly to see each other. We each have family where the other lives. When we reconnected physically it felt exactly the same. We always had a chemistry. He was worried because he had gained a lot of weight but he looked the same to me. I mean, I could see what he looked like now, but I still see him at 22.
He told me about his PTSD when his behavior started to change and I was ready to leave. And yes, I love him. I don't say that because it seems to make him run more. So now I take it day by day. It's hard, I'm never sure what to think. We are long distance so I just live my life here and hope to hear from him. There was I time that I would have turned my life upside down for him, but not now. Now I don't know when he stops texting if I'll ever hear from him again. So I just live my life and let him be as much or as little a part of it as he wants. I don't know how long I can do this do I take it day by day.
