Scottynonymous
New Here
Latest event, younger brother gets back on drugs after getting out of jail for stealing(again). So Ikick him out. My wife and I don't need that crap. My older brother shows up to get him after being told to stay away from me by cops and me. I get threatened with a gun, then he runs, cops never saw him. Never tried to find him.
3 days later I get raided by 10-15 cops with guns saying I have cocaine, weed, being cruel to animals and my mom. None was true. Cop gets busted 3 months later for being dirty and listening to my crackhead brother.
I beat him up once for stealing from my mother. Spent 38 days in jail. He had called the cops 4 times saying I had drugs. I never had drugs! He is so retarded he can't keep from screwing everyone he sees. He gets kicked out of every home he is invited into. Now he is my mother and grandfathers concern.
In the meantime my 2 brothers call me, send me threats and insults online. I change my number, but as soon as I call mom they get it miraculously.
I hate waking up feeling like I'm fighting my brothers or cops or feeling helpless to defend myself. When I hit my brother I felt so bad I cut my wrist with a butcher knife and almost lost a finger. That's been a year or so.
My main issues are dreams, not eating, remembering all the bad happenings. Hitting my wife in my sleep. Staying irritable over incidents I can not put a stop to and may be the end of me. Not by my hands but by dirty cops getting me shot or my brothers killing me.
I am seriously in need of some sleep and relaxation. I try doing things to get my mind on other stuff but I still get thoughts of all the corruption in my life which I did not deserve and can not get it behind me.
<Edited for capitalization and paragraph breaks by Amethist>
3 days later I get raided by 10-15 cops with guns saying I have cocaine, weed, being cruel to animals and my mom. None was true. Cop gets busted 3 months later for being dirty and listening to my crackhead brother.
I beat him up once for stealing from my mother. Spent 38 days in jail. He had called the cops 4 times saying I had drugs. I never had drugs! He is so retarded he can't keep from screwing everyone he sees. He gets kicked out of every home he is invited into. Now he is my mother and grandfathers concern.
In the meantime my 2 brothers call me, send me threats and insults online. I change my number, but as soon as I call mom they get it miraculously.
I hate waking up feeling like I'm fighting my brothers or cops or feeling helpless to defend myself. When I hit my brother I felt so bad I cut my wrist with a butcher knife and almost lost a finger. That's been a year or so.
My main issues are dreams, not eating, remembering all the bad happenings. Hitting my wife in my sleep. Staying irritable over incidents I can not put a stop to and may be the end of me. Not by my hands but by dirty cops getting me shot or my brothers killing me.
I am seriously in need of some sleep and relaxation. I try doing things to get my mind on other stuff but I still get thoughts of all the corruption in my life which I did not deserve and can not get it behind me.
<Edited for capitalization and paragraph breaks by Amethist>
