have any of you heard of or had any experience with feeling faint as a form of dissociation? I read that can happen
Yep. For about 5 years. 2012-2016. Every other Monday, with few exceptions. .
No matter how hard I fought against it, I would collapse within a few hours, and not come back to “myself” (mostly) until later in the week. Initially the weekend, gradually shifted to sometime Wednesday (early morning or late at night, there was no telling) or even as early as Tuesday night. Although I would wake once every 24-36 hours to be able to pee & get a drink, I only had minutes, before my legs would go out from underneath me, again. Fade to black. As the years went by, I gradually managed to at least wake daily, for up to around 20 minutes. But it could also be 2 minutes.
Mostly myself, meaning that my mind would split. For 5 years I either had access to this weeks memories (6mo of the year) or that weeks memories(6mo of the year). But never both at the same time. Attempts to do so would make me appear drunk, or like I was having a seizure. Cognition, speech, motor control, each successively gone, to greater and greater degree.
It was diagnosed as severe disassociation in response to extreme stress.
Similar to the sudden -but acute- loss of consciousness that many people experience as fainting in response to extreme stress. People who give death notifications are very, very familiar with this response. No matter how hale/healthy/hearty the individual? They can fall like a tree to the ground, seriously injuring themselves. In individuals of advanced age, or poor health, this collapse -which is a defensive/protective measure- often proves fatal as it can induce a heart attack or stroke as heir bodies are simply not equipped to shut down that fast/hard without side effects. “This news will kill them!” is actually a very valid, literal, fear.
I’ve done the dissociative fugue state thing intermittently with my trauma history/past. So the week on week off thing isn’t too far from that one. And I’ve fainted, once, with bad news. My docs figure this was, essentially, that. My brain attempting to protect me / remain functional, in an impossibly difficult situation. Rather than going mad. Which, to be fair, I’ve also done a time or three. So as far as spectrums go? Fainting & Fugue is fairly far along the dissociative spectrum, but a far better alternative than straight up insanity.