Fantasies Of Self-harming In Front Of People

[Cool Cat]

I'm really sorry if I've made anyone uncomfortable. This post is about self-harm. It's not graphic but just wanted to warn you.

So I haven't SHed in almost 6 weeks! That's the longest I've gone in nearly 6 months!
But the weird thing is, I keep getting these fantasies of self-harming in front of people. People who stress me out, the kids at the college I go to. The fantasy is they are bickering and stressing me out and I pick something up and do really bad self-harm (worse than I ever would of done even when I was at my worst) as if to say a big "F*CK YOU!" And then walk away after a few seconds.

What's the story with this fantasy? I don't get it.

 

[StarChild]

It's not graphic but just wanted to warn you.

Hi @Cool Cat, just a little information for you; Although it is well meant to warn people, we do not use trigger warnings throughout the forum. Because, who knows, what another may trigger... So we don't use them at all.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Yup, not used as they are simply pointless. Taken out of the title.

 

[Cool Cat]

Sorry guys, I didn't know..

 

[digger]

What's the story with this fantasy? I don't get it.

as if to say a big "F*CK YOU!"

I think you have probably already hit on the answer yourself. The bickering stresses you out because you have bigger stuff going on, but it's stuff that they are oblivious to. Here they are airing and sharing trivial stuff for all the world to hear while you feel have to keep silent on the serious soul destroying going on in your own life. Part of you would like the world to know that - part of you would like to be able to scream that out or shove it in the world's face for all to see - look here is my pain!

Maybe? That would be might take on it anyway.

 

[Cool Cat]

@digger I think you may have hit the nail on the head