Fear

[lonelyred]

I'm scared. I'm always scared, but right now, I'm more scared, I am trying to live a normal life, get back into the workforce and move on with my life. I responded to an opportunity this week, and found out someone from my past works there.

This is the first time I've been in a good position to actually get a job, but ever since I found out I've been having nightmares, he's beating me and people just watch, then he starts to strip me and rape me. He hasn't done anything yet, he hit me last time I saw him 3 years ago, and said he'd hurt me if he saw me again.

I need this job, but I have the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach, there are loads of employees but him being there makes me scared, if I get the job I will see him, I don't know what to do, the nightmares are so bad so vivid that my partner can't even sleep in the same bed

 

[cherryblossom]

What an awful situation for you.

I think I'd be more inclined to look after my mental health and not go for the job. But equally that would severely piss me off that a perp was stopping me from moving on with my career.

It's a tough call, but you need to be as 'well' as possible. Seeing him again could be a step backwards since even the thought of seeing him is causing you such distress. I think your health is more important than the job, but what do you think? Would you even be able to go to work, with the thought of seeing him daily?