I've spiralled really quickly today. Bad night sleep. Other triggers for me questioning my state of mind, myself, my reality... feel like I'm losing it and I'm scared. I'm just so tired and just increasingly feel like not being here is an appealing option.... i don't get to this place often (I have been here before but not for a long time)... I just feel like my life has got to a point of no return..I can't undo the way my life has gone and how I've reacted to it... I'm trying to be a good mum tonight but feel like I'm failing- very selfish behaviour of me... and that's the last straw really... sorry don't really know what I'm asking of this post... just need to get it out of me