Feeling Lonely.

[Me Myself and I]

no one knows about my PTSD apart from my DR and T.

At first no one knew either, except few close members of my family, but then I had to come to the UK and move here all of a sudden, because I had to see a therapist, things were getting out of control.

I was like, I am just going for a long vacation, since both of my uncles live here, but of course they didn't buy it. It was too sudden and strange to be just for a vacation. I kept telling the same lie for almost a year, but then, I have realized that it is time for me to get over this as well. So what if I have PTSD, so what if they wont understand, I had to let them know.
Some understood, some checked it up online, others thought I was just "seeking for attention". But that didn't bother me at all. And now I feel much better, I no longer have to justify my "sudden vacation" and I feel more at peace with myself and the world. :)

 

[Rennie]

I know I would be better off with someone in the real world on my side but no one knows of the trauma I went through and 5 years down the track I cant prove it, add to that some issues with time lines thank to PTSD I reckon they are just going to laugh in my face then go about systematically trying to prove me wrong.

 

[Britt.f7]

Nabii, hope things are feeling better.

I spent time with my husband before he left to work just so I could hold on to that feeling of not being alone. I absolutely hate that feeling.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

The past few days have been really rough on me. The grief and the pain of the loss of my husband and being here home alone, were really painful

I talked to my daughter about moving in to her house. I will try to hang onto my place for as long as I can. I just do not do well with the loneliness around here. It is so hard to have the bad days of being in the grieving process.