J_trustno1
Diamond Member
After a rough month with so many things, I am happy to state that I am starting to get back on track and be myself again. I have realized that I no longer have to prove people wrong to put myself in more misery. Yes, I was in bad depression till yesterday but having a close look at my options and things I need to work on made me realise that I exist in my body not someone elses . I am free to make decisions for myself and be happy with who I am other than asking people for making decisions for me.
I was about to make wrong decisions till yesterday by falling into a trap of arranged marriage but I am finally in my senses now. I feel that this is my life and I don't owe to anyone else but myself. So I am ready to be me again, willing to help others when they need me except my abusers and go ahead in life. I know that I have so much to achieve in life. I have made the list of what i want to achieve in life and it is below:
1. Be happy and healthy both mentally and physically
2. Get a professional job in my field of study
3. Get therapy and overcome the issues I have
4. Get restricted and full drivers license
5. Be a good swimmer
6. Learn to play the piano and violin
7. Sea diving
8. sky diving
9. Play tennis/badminton
10. Be good at yoga
11. Study PhD in chemical Engineering (specializing in Plastics, I'll leave this to the time and do it when i return to university)
12. oh,, i nearly forgot, martial arts for my own safety
13. I want to find the Mr Right and learn Salsa dance with him because I don't want learn it with any random dude
14. Have a child and be a good mother. I want to be able to give my time to my children so they don't crave and suffer from parents attention. I want to keep them away from my abusers and in fact the city I was abused in. They will be my best friends and I will try my best to provide them with the best education and morals as I can. I will teach them the value of love, respect and time not materialistic things. I will teach them to be good human beings and will teach them to be kind. I will want them to have high self-esteem and great confidence which I lacked in my childhood and even till now. I want a friendship with my children not treating them like I own them but teach them ethics.
This is the list of things I want to achieve in few years to come. The first four are the ones that I want to achieve within this year and for the later ones, I will keep working hard at them. There is a lot more I want to achieve but for now these are some of my goals that i want to achieve within 10 yrs from now :)
Thanks for reading this :) and thanks to all who were there to help me out yesterday when I was emotionally down. Lastly, thanks to the owners of this forum who have provided such a great supporting network for us to benefit from. Love you all and hugs to everyone who has read this :)
I was about to make wrong decisions till yesterday by falling into a trap of arranged marriage but I am finally in my senses now. I feel that this is my life and I don't owe to anyone else but myself. So I am ready to be me again, willing to help others when they need me except my abusers and go ahead in life. I know that I have so much to achieve in life. I have made the list of what i want to achieve in life and it is below:
1. Be happy and healthy both mentally and physically
2. Get a professional job in my field of study
3. Get therapy and overcome the issues I have
4. Get restricted and full drivers license
5. Be a good swimmer
6. Learn to play the piano and violin
7. Sea diving
8. sky diving
9. Play tennis/badminton
10. Be good at yoga
11. Study PhD in chemical Engineering (specializing in Plastics, I'll leave this to the time and do it when i return to university)
12. oh,, i nearly forgot, martial arts for my own safety
13. I want to find the Mr Right and learn Salsa dance with him because I don't want learn it with any random dude
14. Have a child and be a good mother. I want to be able to give my time to my children so they don't crave and suffer from parents attention. I want to keep them away from my abusers and in fact the city I was abused in. They will be my best friends and I will try my best to provide them with the best education and morals as I can. I will teach them the value of love, respect and time not materialistic things. I will teach them to be good human beings and will teach them to be kind. I will want them to have high self-esteem and great confidence which I lacked in my childhood and even till now. I want a friendship with my children not treating them like I own them but teach them ethics.
This is the list of things I want to achieve in few years to come. The first four are the ones that I want to achieve within this year and for the later ones, I will keep working hard at them. There is a lot more I want to achieve but for now these are some of my goals that i want to achieve within 10 yrs from now :)
Thanks for reading this :) and thanks to all who were there to help me out yesterday when I was emotionally down. Lastly, thanks to the owners of this forum who have provided such a great supporting network for us to benefit from. Love you all and hugs to everyone who has read this :)
