Feeling Unwanted And Unloved

[ms spock]

Do you want to check what I copied and posted over here Sandra? If there is anything you wanted to deleted then I need to do it shortly.

I went back through and turned some of the comments in to quotes so it is easier to read through the development of the conversation. For some of them now I can't do that as I have run out of the 60 minutes that allows me to edit and change. Hopefully it is understandable.

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[ms spock]

Some people call me the hugging woman! I am a hugger with real expertise and experience!

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[James B.]

Oh..hey it's...OK, just another day in the life of...a trauma survivor, another one of those "healing days" where I feel like a part of me is dying...

Feeling unwanted and unloved? Oh god...

 

[ms spock]

I'm seriously moved by this thread...thanks for starting it.

Thank you James for contributing.

This thread is the crux of what my biggest hurdle to overcome is - the pain of the rejection, abuse, abandonment and sadism. To sit with it, look it in the eye and feel it. This is my main path at this time.

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[Sandra]

Looks fine to me. :)

 

[Sandra]

Thank you James for contributing.

This thread is the crux of what my biggest hurdle to overcome is - the pain of the rejection, abuse, abandonment and sadism.

ms spock

That is so true.

 

[James B.]

Me too. Big crux.

Yes Ms Spock, dealing with the things you said is my crux too...

 

[ms spock]

Sometimes this stuff just isn't easy or completely rational to get out or discuss, but the topic, the thread title hits me right between the eyes...lol I guess I feel this way. In a really secret personal way.

Good job ms spock.

James I find the disconnection disconcerting - it is such a secret personal thing for me as well - I have a really dazzling and extroverted front.

It is so hard to discuss unquantifiable concepts such as abandonment and no place to belong. It isn't easy to put out there.

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[James B.]

Thank you James for contributing.

This thread is the crux of what my biggest hurdle to overcome is - the pain of the rejection, abuse, abandonment and sadism.

ms spock

very hard, just so hard to do...

 

[Sandra]

I totally agree James B.

 

[Sandra]

And when I was in that horrible marriage I felt he only loved my body and my money and didnt love me. But that isn't uncommon for an abuser or an addict to do that. And he was both an abuser and an addict.

 

[James B.]

My siblings needed a punching bag, something to express what they were getting from insane parents or..wait, an insane dad, and my mom who was battered wife syndrome all the way...