Feeling Very Unstable Right Now

[franciemarnie]

When I feel like I am going to explode, working out or running or doing something physical releases some of the unbearable energy. It won't fix things but it might help bring relief. You have so much going on inside.

 

[katiekat]

I am sorry you are going through this right now. I'd suggest writing whatever you can and post it here. This is a safe place with people who have been where you are at right now, who might be able to help. Can you keep posting here?

Also, maybe this is worth a try, can you think about someone you care about and what you would say to them if they were struggling the way you are right now? Can you go through other people's posts who are also struggling and try to offer help to them? For some reason this has pulled me out of dark places. Try everything everyone here is suggesting...maybe there's actually something that will hold you over or calm you. And try to be kind to yourself and practice compassion for yourself... you DO have options and choices that are healthy. HUGS!!

 

[FindingMyself88]

Sorry was talking to roommate…Im slightly better, but still desperate. My cousin's husband started texting and calling me again today.

He says inappropriate things but no one believed me when my same cousin's brother raped me so i know they won't now…i finally blocked him because i couldn't take it anymore. I know this is gonna cause chaos with the family..so I've been triggered today already, having flashbacks to the rape…then i find out i can't see my therapist tomorrow…. :(

 

[BloomInWinter]

The chaos in your family is already there. You have every right to take steps to protect yourself. Good for you for blocking him. If he contacts you again, you can get the police involved.

You're actually handling this well, though it doesn't feel like it. Hang in there. It gets better.

 

[FindingMyself88]

I don't feel like I'm handling this well at all! :(.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

You need to drop something else. Harming yourself is enough to be hospitalized yet you insist on keeping a full plate. If you don't find something to let go of, you're going to crash and burn. If things are this bad now, just wait until your toxic family moves in. Sorry if this sounds harsh, but your threads resonate of crisis mode, yet you don't really think it's serious enough to drop a few things. Honestly, what happens when you graduate? You still won't be able to work, won't have insurance, and grad school will be off the table----it's much more stressful. Think about it.

 

[NukaGirl]

No need to be so harsh, Solara.
We all know what it's like when we start panicking. All sense and reason goes out the window. The last thing any of us needs when we feel this way is someone being harsh about how we're feeling. It doesn't help and only serves to agitate us more.

 

[FindingMyself88]

I've dropped everything but school and church and school is limited. If I drop them I will become a hermit and go crazy being alone. I'm trying the best I can. Stuff just keeps happening and I can't stop the mental assault from nightmares and flashbacks. It's honestly all the pain that's overwhelming me

 

[Abstract]

Finding. I would save the texts in some form too as it is evidence against in and something to prove to family if you need to do that ever. Not that evidence works with family a lot of the time. :rolleyes:

Anything you can do to empty your stress cup a little should bring symptoms down. Such as doing something nice for yourself. Have you read the stress cup article?

 

[FindingMyself88]

I deleted the ones from before and so far none of these are "incriminating" because I haven't been answering him back.

I've been trying my coping skills and such, but being stuck inside because of snow makes it miserable…right now I SHOULD be getting ready to go see my T… :(

 

[bell]

Okay, one thing that I can suggest if you can't go anywhere, have called everyone you know, and no one's answering. Lie down on the floor (like a starfish, only so that you're comfortable). Close your eyes. Put your hands over your belly. Breathe in deeply (counting to however many is comfortable), breathe out deeply (counting to however many is comfortable, ensuring that your exhales are slightly longer than your inhales). Repeat, counting to the same number each time in the inhales and exhales.

Focus on the breathing and nothing else. Feel how it feels as it enters your whole body (so to speak) and then exits it.

Continue until your hands (still on your belly) are moving up and down with your breath. This will get your breathing regulated, which will bring your heart rate down and usually helps to calm down your mind. (However, if it's really racing, it may take awhile.)

When your hands are going up and down, you're breathing deeply and from your diaphragm and not shallowly from your chest, which we tend to do when we're stressed/anxious/uneasy. The next time your anxiety/energy/unease spikes, take note of where you are breathing from. If you're breathing from your chest, repeat this exercise.

This, at the very least, should help you be able to gain a little ground on the "everything is going to be okay" front.

 

[FindingMyself88]

I have something that I do similarly, that only helped after hours of distress last night..

My T emailed me just a few minutes ago. If she has a cancellation today or tomorrow she will let me know, but otherwise she has me coming in Monday at 11. She didn't say anything about me being in crisis mode…i feel bad because I've emailed her a lot lately like this..