I am a soldier who is 100% disabled and have been so since 2009. I have sever PTSD, I don't deal with people that well anymore outside of my home and I do sleep like a mad man with too much on his mind every night. Aside from them trying to get me to take pills, which we all know is the only response to anything anymore, I have found nothing to help with these dag gone sleep problems.
I start to fall asleep and everything is fine, then after about an hour of sleeping I wake up for what ever reason. I then attempt to fall back to sleep because everyone in the house is sleeping and I don't like to be awake all dang night long.
So I try to fall back to sleep and it begins: Start to drift off and then "BOOM", I jolt awake and feel like I can't frickin breath. Then, lay back down, and it starts all over again... all night long until my mind is about to snap.
Not apnea, because I do not start gasping for air like apnea people do... I just feel like the moment I start to fall asleep, I cant breath, my heart is going to stop or I am going to die. I adjust my sleep position and it never helps... same thing only getting worse now. I get up, walk around, worry that I will never sleep and try to calm down.
Nothing helps... the world gets smaller and my mind starts to race. Take a blood pressure pill, and try again... same results. Get up, almost crying and freaking out... then I get 1/2 a Xanax... try again... then when the pill starts to make me drowsy, I fall asleep and jolt awake again and again... until the pill is strong enough to over ride the symptoms... I hate this crap... it is lonely and horrible to feel like this.
Usually happens more frequently when I go to counseling and talk about my issues. Then I feel better and go home only to find that my sleep is destroyed... So... you are not alone my friend... this is just horrible and scary. Hold on... God is watching us all and will deliver us from this madness. Just have faith. I am with you, and know it is horrible. Good luck.