Hi everyone
I was diagnosed with cptsd last year but been going in and out of denial. I found this site several months ago and at first really liked it. Then i thought maybe I was imagining things. I thought if I could leave my living situation, it would resolve itself and i'd get over it. I am now in a beautiful and safe place and quite happy with my life. Yet my mind is still traumatized.
My trauma is complicated and started since I was three to continuously till I was 22, I did well for a few years and then had a relapse. Then again I got better for a number of years, and then again I had a trigger 2 years ago when I was 35. This last time was the worst. I recovered enough to function but the main loss is that I can no longer drive due to not being able to be present and from general anxiety.
I have a dull heaviness in my head about 3-4 days out of a week. I am at a university in graduate school. I am okay with the reading and writing, but the social aspect is very challenging. Its difficult to be present in my classes which require participation. Its hard to speak up or be normal with people. Friendship is not really possible. Generally I am trying to figure out everyday coping strategies to deal with my emotions. I have been trying to meditate to bring the weight down from my head. and also eating well and exercising. I am hoping on the days it gets really bad I can let it out here.
I love school and would be ultra depressed or suicidal if I can't do this due to the ptsd. I also have a young child who is a sweetheart and is very helpful to me. I want to give her a happy childhood.
Thank you for reading.
didi
I was diagnosed with cptsd last year but been going in and out of denial. I found this site several months ago and at first really liked it. Then i thought maybe I was imagining things. I thought if I could leave my living situation, it would resolve itself and i'd get over it. I am now in a beautiful and safe place and quite happy with my life. Yet my mind is still traumatized.
My trauma is complicated and started since I was three to continuously till I was 22, I did well for a few years and then had a relapse. Then again I got better for a number of years, and then again I had a trigger 2 years ago when I was 35. This last time was the worst. I recovered enough to function but the main loss is that I can no longer drive due to not being able to be present and from general anxiety.
I have a dull heaviness in my head about 3-4 days out of a week. I am at a university in graduate school. I am okay with the reading and writing, but the social aspect is very challenging. Its difficult to be present in my classes which require participation. Its hard to speak up or be normal with people. Friendship is not really possible. Generally I am trying to figure out everyday coping strategies to deal with my emotions. I have been trying to meditate to bring the weight down from my head. and also eating well and exercising. I am hoping on the days it gets really bad I can let it out here.
I love school and would be ultra depressed or suicidal if I can't do this due to the ptsd. I also have a young child who is a sweetheart and is very helpful to me. I want to give her a happy childhood.
Thank you for reading.
didi
