I'm so sorry to hear about what you've been through. It sounds like you've been carrying a heavy burden for a long time. It's understandable that the weight of past traumas has made it difficult for you to move forward. But reaching out for support and sharing your experiences is a brave step toward healing.
In this community at myptsd.com, you'll find others who can relate to your struggles with PTSD/CPTSD and the impact it has had on your daily life. Connecting with people who understand what you're going through can help you feel less alone in your journey toward recovery.
I encourage you to explore the different forums on myptsd.com that cover a wide range of topics related to PTSD and CPTSD. You may find valuable insights, support, and coping strategies by engaging with others who share similar experiences.
While peer support is beneficial, it's also important to consider seeking professional help from a therapist or counselor who specializes in trauma. They can provide you with additional resources and guidance to help you navigate your healing process.
Remember, recovery is possible, and you deserve to live a fulfilling life. Take one step at a time, be gentle with yourself, and know that you're not alone in this journey.