In truth I need to see a therapist because I need to show others that I'm trying. If it were up to me I wouldn't see one at this moment.
I'm completely confused. If you yourself don't want to see a therapist right now, how is therapy going to be of any benefit? By definition, therapy isn't about going through the motions. It isn't something you can just show up for, for the sake of what other people think. (Well, it can be, but in that case you wouldn't actually want a good therapist, because a good therapist wouldn't participate in that.) If it isn't that, then there must be some goals and expectations - and then you would need to be clear about those before you could try to find a therapist who might match them.
I hope you won't mind me saying this, but a lack of any feeling of investment in this seems to be shining out of what you write. I can't help wondering if the way you're approaching it is what led to a poor experience in the past. . Maybe you did put a lot of effort in before, although you're not saying anything that gives that impression. Did you want to get things out of therapy, do a lot of research, decide on the type of therapy you wanted, talk to a lot of potential therapists, and commit to making it work with the person you picked? Or did you start off with the idea that it's pretty much random, perhaps even that you weren't doing it for yourself that time either?
I don't think finding a therapist is random, or that you're unlikely to get a good match (by chance?) the first time - at least not if you've tried hard to find someone suitable. I think the more you put into the search and selection process, the more you're likely to get out of seeing a therapist. If you put a lot into finding someone before and it didn't work out well, then that's a tough one but it can help you identify what you do want. If you didn't put much into finding someone and it didn't work out well... to be honest, I think that result's almost inevitable.
If you don't really want to see a therapist anyway, I'm afraid I can't get my head round that. To be very honest, my best tip for finding a therapist would be to care about it. Not meaning that in a dismissive or critical way, but in a very straightforward one. If your heart isn't in it, how can you find someone right for you? How could anyone be right for you?
