Flashbacks But Hard To Explain

[C1985]

Ever since my assault which was over a year ago every so often i have a feeling like a flashback but it feels more like im forcing myself to remember... Forcing to kind of try to recreate the event in my head. I dont understand why my mind goes there.. Can anyone relate?

 

[NewDayTomorrow]

Yes I can relate. Sometimes I imagine scenarios that haven't even happened and it feels like I am making them up on purpose. Sometimes real memories intrude and sometimes it feels like I am dwelling on them. It makes me feel crazy. So that makes two of us.

 

[C1985]

Thanks.. Finding people that think similar makes me feel less crazy thats for sure.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

I do too, and I feel like I am trying to fill in the blanks, and then I sometimes get a flashback that does fill in the blank, but I question whether it is real even though it seems really real. And I have drawn my whole sequence of events and keep redrawing the same terrifying picture.

 

[Ruth Bateson]

I feel like I might kind of force myself to relive moments out of survivor guilt. I feel a responsiblity to remember. I don't deserve peace of mind about something that has taken others from this world.