Flashbacks In Therapy I Can't Go Back!

[Kat_9]

I need help I want help but I don't know how to get it, I have so many problems from my past that hurt to talk about. I saw a GP and was referred to a psychologist and we had our consult, which she started me on cognitive behavioural therapy the next session and it was the hardest thing I'd ever done to go and tell everything to a stranger.

Either way I pushed through, I was determined to not be afraid every day, to want to leave the house! Then I was hit a crippling blow. I was told I could know longer see that therapist. I cried so hard I cant do it again. They're my secrets I just want to forget everything and start fresh but it seems like there's no way out! I cant find any support groups. and I wondered if it would help talking to others with the same condition. I have trouble talking, I'm a listener I feel paranoid constantly of being judged whether my fault or not.

I feel lost at sea. I may have seen a therapist, but no one believes me, they keep blaming themselves for my emotions, I feel like I'm on an endless rollercoaster and I've just about hit rock bottom no matter how hard I push through.

 

[all_akimbo]

That sucks! I'm so sorry. I hope you can find a good therapist that can actually help. I'm sure someone is out there who can help. Have you looked at any of the sites recommended on this site for treatment? I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you.

 

[Meadowsweet]

I think sometimes there's no point fighting the fact that other people let you down. In the end you have to say stuff them and be there for you.

There will be other opportunities to find what you need. I'm in a similar position re therapy. My therapist can't treat me, through no fault of my own. But next week I have an assessment with someone else, and hope that this time will be more helpful.

I feel like I've wasted time. But we can't get time back, and so we have to just get up again and keep trying towards what we want.

It may be useful to ask about ways of finding therapy and how to find the right therapist for you.

All the best.

 

[Deleted member 14359]

I think tis very much depends what country you are in.

Do you have local voluntary organisations and do you have to pay?

This makes all the difference. In the UK we have the NHS to give us free treatment but it isn't always the best. More specialised charities and organisations seem to do a better job.

I hope you find someone who suits and can help you beyond this painful time. Please make sure you find a therapist who specialises in your type of trauma.

 

[Rumors]

Sometimes in order for me not to get caught up in the emotion, I try and go thru my options one by one. As I understand your dilemma, your options seem to be you can either choose NOT to see someone else and that would guarantee that you won't feel better in the short run OR you can give it a go with someone else and perhaps could find some success in at least finding enough relief that you can find some steady ground.

Trust is a pretty complicated thing. For people like us, it feels as important as the air we breath. Without it we seem to feel like we are smothering. I can only tell you that in my process the hardest thing for me to understand is that sometimes people let you down and it isn't necessarily a reflection of who I am but instead who they are. Unfortunate circumstances happen to good people. Keep the faith and keep trying until you find a fit. The alternative is that you never find resolution and you feel bad. Life is too short to feel bad. Make a commitment to not feel bad anymore and you can get thru anything! This process is all about YOU and what you need to do to find resolution, no matter how many people you talk to before you find the right fit! Never give up!