Flashbacks

[hippyman]

Lately, and for the past few weeks actually, I have been thinking more often than usual, about my little brother, and when we lost him in the accident. In fact, I've been thinking about the accident in general more than usual. I have never had actual "flashbacks" before, so I was wondering, could this be what I am experiencing?

 

[kers]

I suggest you do a search for the term "flashbacks" and you will find lots of useful posts. There is also a lot of helpful stuff in the information section of the forum.

Flashbacks have a sense of reliving, re-experiencing the event, while intrusive thoughts have more of a ruminative quality, reviewing a memory over and over.

 

[hippyman]

Thats another thing, I dont know if anyone else has ever experienced anything like this, but, I never have been able to remember the accident, when it happened, I mean, so I'm not sure if I could "relive it"

 

[BethRSA]

Hi Hippyman!

Several times, I've had a flashback first of part of my trauma--before I really "remember" what happened. The flashbacks would come and I couldn't figure out--"Where is this coming from?"

Eventually, I could piece together what happened from the bits and pieces of the flashbacks. Only then, could I remember the trauma in a logical, step-by-step way.

I don't know, but that's my experience. Hope it helps,
Beth

 

[TLight]

For me, flashbacks have a huge emotional component as well as the extreme adrenaline rushes. My body contorts, terror rules, and 'something' is overwhelming me to the point I"m just not able to cope with anything and calming down is incredably difficult, if seemingly impossible and takes a long time.

I don't have 'pictures' that come with them. I know I'm not in the present, but I don't know really what's happening to me.

My intrusive thoughts are his 'eyes', the screaming and hatred in his body mannerisms, the fists flying at me. These things ruminant in my mind, especially when I lie down to sleep.

Flashbacks are like my body trying to get away, with no hope and the 'for-certain' terror that I'm going to die.

 

[TLight]

Just writing that made me feel very sick and like my head is about to split in two.............I"m shaking.