It's okay, KP. I was being a wimp, too.
I get a lot of comments from my family on how "little" I am. They seem to have forgotten what I looked like when I was 14. I changed my life around really radically when I got out of my relationship with my abusive boyfriend. Before then, I was most certainly addicted to food and considered medically obese, even though no one "thought" I "looked" obese. I was. I was lucky in how I wore my weight, but it was there and causing me pain physically and emotionally.
My trick? I took a dive into something called macrobiotics, which is more a lifestyle than a "diet." It's about total well-being, spiritually, emotionally, and in diet. The basic premise is no processed foods. That means basically vegan outside of fish. Only whole-grain everything. Lots of brown rice, greens, and bean products (though not a lot of soy, especially for females, as too much is bad for us ladies). I also ate solely with chopsticks for about a year, which naturally regulates your eating because it is more intentional and will slow you down. It's naturally low-sugar because nothing is processed. You eat everything in season and nothing outside of your region (bananas are out unless you're from a tropical area).
BUT there's lots of room for your own choices. I've gone back to eating almost everything except for meat, because now I know what makes me feel bad. Too much pasta or white bread will kill my stomach. A sugar-cube sized piece of meat will make me feel sick sometimes because I can feel how rich it is having gone without it for five years.
I'm not telling anyone to diet. I'm just saying I've been in food addiction as well as starved myself. Macrobiotics really saved me and changed my relationship with food. Not many people know about it because it's mostly a Japanese thing. But it was the best thing I ever did for my body, and I guess I wanted to share some success because I know how hard it is, but it's possible to beat. My mother has a horrible food addiction, particularly a sugar addiction, and she really turned her life around, too. Unfortunately, now that I'm not home to help her make the choices that she knows are good for her, she has slid back. I know what this can do for people and just wanted to share. No offense or pressure meant.
