Freaking Anxiety

[Deleted member 541]

I have a low level of anxiety everyday. I've learned to live with it. Certain things bring that anxiety to a level I'm not comfortable with. Yeah, like who gets comfortable with anxiety!!!!

Anyways.... I'm fine driving to places I know. Around my whole county is no issue for me, but when I venture outside of my county, and I'm unfamiliar with places, then the anxiety notches upwards. Soooo, every year I venture to our state fair. That means I have to DRIVE to get there. I have GPS so that's not an issue, it's driving in unfamiliar territory. Then when I get to the fair... It's CROWED!!!!! Over a million people visit our fair in the 17 days that it's on. So, it's crowed and it noisy.

I Love seeing everything that's there, animals, circus, food, the vendors and all their wares, but I hate the drive there, the drive home, the crowds and the noise.

I do it to get out of my comfort zone, but I'm so anxious right now, I feel canceling. Out of all of the symptoms that f*cking PTSD hands us, anxiety is the one I f*cking hate the most.......

I don't even know why I am posting this?!?!?!

 

[anthony]

I hear ya... even depression I can keep managed better than that low level anxiety that just sits there, waiting to kick my arse further the moment I'm outside my comfort zone.

 

[hodge]

Yeah, agree, the depression is so much easier to deal with than the anxiety.

Have you gone to the fair?

 

[Deleted member 541]

@anthony Yea, hate the freaking anxiety more than depression too. I hate how it makes me feel and all the weird shit that goes along with it too, from feeling like I'm on drugs, to the jerky movements, racing heart, sweating..... Ect ect. Hate all of it, cause I feel out of control.

@hodge No, today is the day I go....anxiety is creeping up already. Just the thoughts of driving over 60 miles to get there is overwhelming. But, I will go, and I will be ok...

 

[hodge]

Hope you had a good day!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am glad that you went anyway. You have more courage than me. I love our fair here and me and my husband used to go every year taking people with us at times. I hope that one day I will make the plans to go again eventually.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@hodge @gizmo Actually once I got going and on the highway, things quieted down. Anxiety just sort of took a hike. I did have a great day. I walked way too much and now have blisters on the BOTTOM of both feet. LOL!!!! @gizmo I too hope that someday you get the courage to go again. All it takes is a bit of determination to get out the door and do it... Sending some determination your way!!!!!!

 

[hodge]

So glad to hear! Did you have any good fair food?

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you @She Cat for the encouragement to go again. I will have to wait until next year. This gives me a year to get ready and maybe I will even take my grandkids with me, they would love it.:hug:

 

[mamachick]

I get those days where the anxiety rises, and sometimes I can identify why, other times, I am clueless, or only guess. I have felt that today. I suspect the cause but am uncertain. I have been going to a meditation group to try to deal with this. I need to be practicing more at home, it really does help.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@brat17 I've never been able to meditate. Can't slow my freaking brain down long enough to do that. I know, they say it isn't about that at all. I just get frustrated and then the brain goes in overdrive, and I quit trying. Hope it works for you!!!,

 

[Deleted member 541]

@hodge..... Fair food.... Omg they have cream puffs to die for. Saw several people sharing one. Nope, screw that, I ate the whole thing by myself!!!! LOL!!!