Frustrated N Not Sure What To Do

[Mrs. Martinez]

Ok, I'm new to this and not great with dealing with or admitting to my emotions, so I'm just gonna put it all out there.....

I was sexually abused my entire childhood in some of the worst ways....I thought I had dealt with most of my issues when it came to relationships, I got married last April and have been with my husband a few years things are good with us and my kids adore him ! This is big for me because I never thought I could trust a man especially around my daughter....I'm Now 7 months pregnant and have been without my meds, they didn't fix it but did make things a lot better.

Now I seem to be constantly haunted and so extremely paranoid, my husband has never done anything to make me not trust him and yet I've still asked my daughter and he tells me nothing and shows no sign of abuse, but everything just makes my stomach turn, sometimes he will touch me or kids me and all I can see his the man who abused me.

I read something online earlier and found myself looking at nanny cams it makes me sick to even think like that especially without reason, and it's not fair to my husband, he's a great dad and went through a, lot of Abuse himself growing up even though it wasn't the same type. He is so protective over this family and sacrifices so much I feel so guilty not only does he deal with the distance from me, but unknowingly is constantly questioned and investigated....

I'm really overwhelmed with the whole situation and really don't have anyone to talk to about it....I know I should prolly start therapy again but I'm a stay at home mom with two Young kids and no vehicle.......Somebody please tell me what ta do

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hi, both of my children had been molested one time each. This devastated me. I began to look really hard at my husband and not trust him with the kids. I think I was paranoid about men abusing my kids again. One of the perpetrators went to jail and the other I shut his daycare down. My daughter was not considered a credible witness because she was so young. I think you are going through something similar. Mabe you could do some research and check into medications that are safe while you are pregnant. It is an idea. I really feel for you and what you are going through. I remember watching my husband like a hawk. I gradually learned to trust him and my paranoia went away. I am hoping the best for you.

 

[Mrs. Martinez]

There's really nothing safe while pregnant and I'm high risk with complicationa so I'm extremely limited I know that stress can cause prada to go crazy along with my anxiety... I've just always felt so safe with him, he's the only man other then a few family members that has even bn around her....I just don't understand y now all of a sudden I'm super paranoid about it....and nothing has happened to make me feel that way...I still don't think he would ever hurt any of us, just everything he does puts me on edge...