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anthony
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I've done that many times. I thought I was in a good place, had to test life without certain walls, found I had to put them up again. I will say 99% of my boundaries are down today, but I still have certain behaviours limited and certain interactions limited, because time and again they have laid me out ill. Even that, I get ill much less today than I used to, but that is experience and a lot of exposure, trial by doing. If I step over certain lines I have found are just immovable in my daily life, then I will get ill and need to rest and isolate to improve again. Its just life experience with PTSD and its consequences. Much better than where I started, but I am now in management with little to no walls or barriers, just known limits I must impose on myself otherwise the consequences for myself and anyone around me, will not be optimal.
I love camping and getting away, to isolated spots, relax, fish, camp fire, etc... but if I do that to much, to long, something I love makes me ill. PTSD ill can quickly lead into depression and many more issues for me. Even if I get ill, I have to force myself out the door and walk, otherwise it would lead to me being dead.
