Goal For The Day

[71nothing]

I enjoyed the talent show!

Now I'm battling with myself over going to Zumba class. My friend that went with me last time is sick and can't go. I know I'll be fine if I just go but my anxiety is very high about it. My mind is bargaining with itself to not go..."you could take a walk instead, or clean the house. You could make dinner or just stay home have have a few drinks...you deserve it!"

Not sure which option will win yet.

 

[ms spock]

I did 3 Dips in the Ocean yesterday so that was great! Along with the exercise I also managed to do cleaning, cooking, study, drawing and writing yesterday. So I have been thinking about that routine a lot lately and I managed to do it. So that is a step through a level of helplessness.

Today I have to adjust my goals to deal with the fact I am physically unwell today.

 

[ms spock]

Now I'm battling with myself over going to Zumba class.

I hope that you went to Zumba 71Nothing as it is building up a routine - creating new neural pathways for a new life!

 

[winterose]

Ms Spock, sorry you are still feeling unwell. It's the Tribbles ain't it? I got you sick by sending more Tribbles. (drops down to the floor and pounds her fist crying nonono)

 

[ms spock]

Oh winterose! The Tribblies kept me up all night with their constant procreation, that and jumping on my face! lol So no it wasn't you. :)

This is a really transient thing and should be gone by this afternoon or tomorrow.

 

[winterose]

I hope you feel better soon. :) IDK what to say about the Tribbles. I'm still trying to herd them into one part of the house after you returned the favor. And I thought the dogs were bed hogs. HAH!

 

[71nothing]

Thank you Ms Spock. I am a creature of habit and these exercise classes are a new routine.

I went! I'm so glad I did. Once I was there my anxiety dropped considerably. To get there I reviewed in my head the worst possible scenarios. I came up with some ridiculous ones! Then I made myself get dressed and walked out the door. That was the hardest part!

 

[ms spock]

I had a nap and I feel much better now. So my goal is to get moving and do about a quarter of what I did yesterday.

 

[ms spock]

I have to go to the doctors for my test results. So I will change my goal for today now.

 

[ms spock]

I went to the doctors.
I went and had a hot beverage with a friend and that was lovely.
I did One Dip in the Ocean Today.

Now my new goals are:


1x 5 minute drawing
1x 5 minute art history
1x 5 minute VAD

1x 5 minute bird ID
1x 5 minute reading

1x 5 minute writing

I got all this done now. So I am pleased about that.

 

[71nothing]

Today has been so tolerable compared to may last few days! It must've been the exercising last night. Ok, so goals for the rest of today are:
1. Not overreact when I go home and find that my teenagers messed up the house and didn't clean up after themselves since they didn't have school today. I mean I know it'll be a mess so I should just accept that fact now.

2. Make an easy dinner for the kids.

3. Go to Zumba (I'm looking forward to this one today!)

 

[safenow]

My goal to day is to just keep functioning. I have an appointment with my therapist at 3:30pm and it's only 1:39pm now. I've been up most of the night. My anxiety level is so high I almost had a panic attack when the phone rang. I've ask the woman who is taking me to just walk my chair and me over there rather than drive. It would just be too hard to try and get in and out of the vehicle today. I am out of my anxiety medications too. I won't be able to get any til Monday either.