Good Thing Hard To Maintain ?

[dougyhowzer]

So as some of you are aware . Most of my trauma that led to my diagnosis of c-PTSD
was in my house during my childhood.

Most of the time when I am in a good environment , I am not having any major flashbacks, negative thought patterns ,and am a generally decent mood. I am also able to be quite productive and that means for me more guitar time yippee.

When I am home however, it's like I am back at the house of where all the horrific trauma occured.

My counsellor have been trying to find ways to change my environment that would lead me to being more productive with the good things I have going. That said, at best I am able to maybe get in 1 hour of guitar time in a day.

I was wondering if anyone has experienced something similiar to this and able to give what their experience has been .

 

[Kintsugi]

Is your current home far from the home in which you suffered?

 

[Friday]

In spades.

I don't have time to go into it all in a clear/concise way right now, but will be back to update. Just wanted to say "Yep!" (and I'll be back) / get this thread on my watched list in case things get busy.

 

[dougyhowzer]

Yup The home in which my suffering took place is close to two hours away .

 

[Nam]

Hey, dougyhowzer. I don't have similar experiences since my trauma happened in a different country and I haven't been back. Even though I had very little environmental triggers, my trauma still needed to be dealt with. It still has a way of coming out.

It's a balancing act, trying to heal. I had to weigh the symptoms against progress. If I had too many symptoms, I simply couldn't live in the present and couldn't work on the therapy as needed. If the symptoms were tolerable (or I made adjustments in my environment to ease the stress), I could concentrate on therapy more.

You reacting to your home is just a sign that there is work to be done. That there is something there that needs to be investigated. Only until you've dealt with this will you find it easier to maintain those good things and feelings. If you don't need to go to your home at all, it may not be as pressing to deal with it. But if you are constantly in that environment, I would deal with as many of those triggers/events as much as I could so that the house is just a house.