Goodbye to forum

[Deleted member 41702]

Whenever I open up and reach out now, nobody even answers me. Why should I stay? It's a waste of time. I knew I shouldn't have come here. I knew it would just be another letdown, like these sites tend to be. I have to just accept that things aren't gonna be any easier. I am destined to suffer, that much is clear. I will never understand people. Hell I don't think I even WANT to understand them. I have no interest in others. Not even in myself. All I want is a paycheck so that I can buy the stuff I need in order to make a quick exit. My life has no value to me or anyone else. With me gone the world will stay the same. I will face an eternity of sleep. At least I won't be feeling any pain. Everytime I reach out and try to get help, I try to tell myself that it's gonna work. And everytime, I am let down. I can only count on myself. The human race is my enemy. Seeking help is a giant waste of time. Never again. This is my final goodbye. Until I get my account removed.

 

[joeylittle]

@Dexter Engvik - you have gotten many replies from many people. How can you say no-one has tried to help you?

Do you understand that you are seeking attention right now?

And if you are seeking attention it means you want help.

Read this. Just forget about PTSD and depression for a moment, and consider the transitional state of your brain:The Teen Brain

I am destined to suffer, that much is clear. I will never understand people...

Wow. You never struck me as one to blindly accept that you do not have any free will. Destined to suffer? Who told you that?

The human race is my enemy

And how did you become so important, that it is you against the entire human race?

What are you looking for, here?

 

[Deleted member 42121]

Bummer:(

 

[gds]

Whenever I open up and reach out now, nobody even answers me. Why should I stay? It's a waste of...

I don't follow posts but saw message. Keybd messed up so cant type much Adult Children of Alcoholics phone meetings no cost. Link below. PTSD etc. Copied links below. Lots of meetings available daily on phone.

adultchildren org added spaces wont let me post address. Take out spaces and add dots to see link.

I don't see notifications of responses. So may not see if you write back. Best wishes.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Dexter, I'm feeling really sad for you. I know you're reaching out and hoping for something from us. I don't know what that is, though. As I've mentioned to you before, we're ALL suffering here. We're in pain. We feel hopeless and despairing. We sometimes don't know how we can take even one more step forward.

Have you read any other threads? And trauma diaries? Have you made an attempt to help ease the suffering of another member? Nothing will draw you out of your morose state than trying to cheer someone else up. Do you volunteer at home? What do you do to help yourself?

What, exactly do you need from us? Do you feel that you need more attention than other sufferers need? I can tell you for myself, I'm working way too hard to give someone else a free ride. But show me how you're trying to heal, and I will walk through fire to help you.

 

[SasTana]

Hey Dexter,
I feel for ya . Actually feeling a few of those same thoughts right now... and have felt all of those ways before - it sucks... I know. But really, how we feel is not anyone else's responsibility is it... lots of life lines around - lots of ideas and suggestions to help you feel better. I bet you can find one to hang onto if you try.
That's all I'm doing tonight- hanging on - even crying some too...

 

[ladee]

This is really sad, that you aren't giving yourself, or us, a chance.... no one is asking you to give up your misery. I asked you in my first reply what did you need from us and why were you here....you never answered... and I completely second what @Mal Content says, we are here for you, but we need to know what you need. We all are in some kind of pain every single day... but no one of us gets all the attention here.... we are fighting our own battles, and will be more than happy to share how to change that.... it's up to you....

 

[Fadeaway]

@Dexter Engvik I didn't reply to you because they were status updates not threads. Your profile page is not the place to have a meaningful discussion. The few threads you made threads got a lot of replies. 5 replies being the least, but 12 and even 28 on others.

 

[Deleted member 41702]

@Dexter Engvik - you have gotten many replies from many people. How can you say...

I said no one is answering ANYMORE.

 

[digger]

I said no one is answering ANYMORE.

And yet you've had responses to all your threads and most of your profile posts...:confused:

 

[Deleted member 41702]

Dexter, I'm feeling really sad for you. I know you're reaching out and hoping for something from us...

I'm not doing this for attention. Let me make that clear. I made this post to say I'm leaving and to explain WHY I am leaving. I'm sick and tired of seeking help without it having an effect. There is nothing I can do or say to help anyone else. And everyone seems to have a HUGE misunderstanding about all this, and I'm tired of repeating myself.

 

[Deleted member 41702]

And yet you've had responses to all your threads and most of your profile posts...:confused:

Barely any.