angel2write
Diamond Member
I am SICK TO DEATH of the stupid nightmares.
And I know no one can help me, and I know pretty much everyone on here is in the same situation. But I'm so sick of them. I'm so sick of waking up feeling creepy for no reason. I'm tired of being afraid to go to bed.
I shouldn't complain. I've been having more and more good days. But I seem to waste the first two hours of my day just trying to get out of bed. I wake up stinking of sweat and anxiety. I'm scared to get up, scared to shower. My kids have to come in and beg me to make breakfast to get me moving.
I feel like I'm making progress in every area except this. How do you fight dreams? Why can't I feel safe when I sleep? One of my hardest triggers was military uniforms, and I actually went into an Army surplus store and went shopping last week. I was so proud. I did great. I even talked to the two men who ran it.
But I can't seem to do anything with the dreams.
I guess I shouldn't gripe. At least I'm sleeping now instead of staying up all night watching re-runs of things I've already seen on Netflix and then napping for a couple hours after the sun comes up.
These dreams- they make me feel sick and helpless and hopeless. I spend the whole night trying to get away from evil things. I feel like I'm stuck in some kind of slow-paced horror movie where you just know the heroine is going to get it in the end. And then I do. And then I wake up. And I wash and wash and wash my sheets... but I can't wash my brain.
Sorry for griping, but I am sad today.
And I know no one can help me, and I know pretty much everyone on here is in the same situation. But I'm so sick of them. I'm so sick of waking up feeling creepy for no reason. I'm tired of being afraid to go to bed.
I shouldn't complain. I've been having more and more good days. But I seem to waste the first two hours of my day just trying to get out of bed. I wake up stinking of sweat and anxiety. I'm scared to get up, scared to shower. My kids have to come in and beg me to make breakfast to get me moving.
I feel like I'm making progress in every area except this. How do you fight dreams? Why can't I feel safe when I sleep? One of my hardest triggers was military uniforms, and I actually went into an Army surplus store and went shopping last week. I was so proud. I did great. I even talked to the two men who ran it.
But I can't seem to do anything with the dreams.
I guess I shouldn't gripe. At least I'm sleeping now instead of staying up all night watching re-runs of things I've already seen on Netflix and then napping for a couple hours after the sun comes up.
These dreams- they make me feel sick and helpless and hopeless. I spend the whole night trying to get away from evil things. I feel like I'm stuck in some kind of slow-paced horror movie where you just know the heroine is going to get it in the end. And then I do. And then I wake up. And I wash and wash and wash my sheets... but I can't wash my brain.
Sorry for griping, but I am sad today.
