Poll Has PTSD Caused You To Attempt Suicide?

[ResaLock]

That was hard to answer. I think its missing a choice of a couple to a few times. It jumps from once, to many times.

Reading it again...I guess your asking the question of an actual attempt of taking action to do it.
...and it relating to PTSD. (My thoughts are most people who attempt suicide may most likely have PTSD.
Maybe not.Those are my thoughts about it though.)
I have thought about it many times, and even thought of many plans of various ways.

I have attempted suicide, but I believe it was in the result of being on Zoloft for PTSD. Where I had a thought. Well maybe I would think it and not react. My experience with Zoloft was it was damaging my reactive responses. I had symptoms of that in other areas as well.

Another time I OD on pills and listed as a suicide. I was not. I was young and ignorant about pain meds and my meds for pain were not working. (You'll have to excuse me. I grew up sheltered.) No one would listen to me though and I was in agony and I took more and more pills, because they just kept telling me to take pain pills. I did. So I wound up taking the whole bottle. Later they found out I had a cyst on my ovaries.

I have had people falsely call the police on me, falsely claiming I was suicidal to have me locked up as a way to abuse me. When I was not suicidal at all. I was being abused though. That was many years ago.

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[Lucycat]

I used to think like that too. I didn't see a future for myself.

My big sister died aged 25. I was 19 then. I had no reason to believe I would live longer than she did.

 

[Deleted member 25333]

I tried to overdose on sleeping pills.. They weren't strong/effective pills, though. And I only took 7 so a part of me felt like I would just wake up the next day like nothing happened. Which is exactly how it went.

Nobody knows, except for 3 online friends. And I am afraid to tell anyone I share this house with cuz I feel like they'll say I'll be opening up on it for attention..

Sometimes I don't feel like it's a suicide attempt but I did take those pills with the intention and hopes to never wake up again.

 

[ResaLock]

My suicidal behavior has been because of the present time. There are times when I am going through flashback and I tell myself " I wish I was dead". That is just the thought at the time. I believe what I mean when I say it to myself ( I wish I was dead) I really mean I wish this would go away.

Just want to say those would be my words at times also. I do say that and think that many times. A while back ago I came to the thought that its not that I really want to die. Its just that I want to die to the pain. I want to die to the world I live in. I have to remind myself. Its not that I really want to die. Because it already seems like I am dying. Like I am being slowly murdered. I realized its not that I want to die and that not what I am really saying. I am saying. I want to live. Sometimes I have to remind myself and change my words and thoughts to what the reality is to over power my thoughts. At those times I want to to when it seems like I am dead or dying. I have to change it to, " I want to live." I do not recall on it at times of flashbacks or triggers in much pain, but its my hope and it puts things into different perspectives.

 

[Friday]

Yep. Many times, various ways.

Mostly high risk living, death wish stuff so blatant I can't even gloss it, much as I might like to.

 

[Kailani]

Too many times to count

 

[Chava]

Yes many times...though almost always the same way (somewhere I chose treatment instead because I realized I was so bad at killing myself). I tried to starve to death, a bit of a slower and more passive death, but really all the blatant suicide attempts were the same (overdoses).

 

[jaccat]

No. Never. I've wanted to die lots, but it's always been a passive thing. By all known "wisdom" I should have been (family history of suicide) but there's always been something that stopped me.

 

[oasis2003]

Actually I put no but thinking high risk behaviour a lot and not eating also lots of suicide ideation. It is the fact that I have 2 daughters that kept me from doing it. High speed driving mainly hoping to crash.

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

Not sure if I can blame it purely on post traumatic, or other issues, but I have been hospitalized more than once for becoming suicidal.

 

[InvisibleSun]

Definitely...I overdosed on heroine and xanax. My drug addictions had gotten out of control because I was using to manage my symptoms. To maintain something that resembled sanity..
..I ate a months worth of Xanax in a day and then injected myself with double the amount of dope that I normally took. I knew when I loaded the needle that it was more than my body could handle, and I was okay with that. Not a planned suicide attempt, but I had a death wish for sure. I wanted oblivion, a way out of the nightmare. My neighbor found me and I woke up in detox. I would never attempt anything like that again, but I will welcome death when it comes. I don't fear it anymore.. because at least then I can be at peace..

 

[RavenGirl]

I thought about it twice. The first time I wad going to slit my wrists, but I have this thing about pain and I figured my luck I'd live through it. The second time I was going to OD on my mom's pain meds, but thanks to my dad I couldn't swallow pills correctly (long story). I thought to myself; why should my abusive brothers get off that easily? No, I'll show them and live so they have to see me every day and remember what they did to me! It was that day I decided the abuse STOPPED. I told the brother who had still been abusing me that if he ever tried to touch me again I'D KILL HIM!! :mad:I told him I'd kill him then tell mom and dad and the whole world what he had done to me; just try if he didn't believe me! He never touched me again. I think he knew and could see it in my face, we had guns in the house and I knew how to use them. :eek: