Hey everyone. Thank you so much for your input and kind words. In all honesty the actual thread I typed up at the time felt okay to go ahead. I read it now with understanding and much clarity and get it now!
What I feel for deep in my heart is hurting others and making others feel they don't matter, or they felt I looked down on them on some way. Oh. My. God. Never do I feel this way around anyone. I just hate that it provoked so much anger and hurt in another person. I feel responsible and would somehow love to rectify my lack of understanding.
But here, lesson learned. It wasn't other members that made me feel all those feelings I am feeling now, this is down to my past, how I was brought up with sadistic family members and how they treated me, and when members commented back to that thread, I started to feel - Oh shit, I've did wrong, I've hurt people and basically made a total fool of myself, I didn't think it through, I wasn't prepared. . .aaarrrggghhh, then bang, childhood trigger and then :cry: with a massive panic attack just to stir things up even more!
I genuinely do care about other people's feelings. I really do. I know how painful it is to hurt and be mistreated, unloved, not valued, etc. . . and I would hate it in myself if I ever made another fellow human being feel that way! I hope this thread somehow reaches the ones that have been offended, to see that I am taking full responsibility and owning up to my mistake that I didn't really think that thread through, I hope it dies off and the thread goes to bed. But I certainly meant no malice, no disregard for anyone's feelings at all. All I want to do is make amends :hug:
