Hate Everything

[The Albatross]

I My doctors are useless. They will not even prescribe me the medicines most of you folks are being given because I was an alcoholic for 8 years. Doesn't matter to them that I quit cold turkey on my own, and don't even so much as twitch when I walk past the aisle in the market and can have a bottle of vodka sit untouched in my home for months on end (or until hubby drinks it, anyway). They are scared to death I will become addicted. Not really sure of their reasoning there, as addiction is better to me than me killing myself from lack of treatment.

So why do you think a med is a treatment? There are other treatments you know. You are applying the same logic to your "treatment" as you are to your activities.... "People are constantly trying to push idea's and activities onto me, saying "Oh you'll like it if you try it!". But no, I never do, and I never will. The crap is boring and pointless and not in the least bit something that I would go for, as if anything is these days."

I think you need a serious attitude adjustment... all else is naught and futile.

"Feeling useless really isn't my problem. I have no desire to be of use to anyone in the first place, as I hate people and society. I want the world to speak to me and give me a reason to stay here. But I'm pretty sure at this point there's nothing left it hasn't tried already."

Hell of a starting point. So if you press on and persist in this attitude.... what's that gonna look like?