Hate My Life, Alone, Survival Mode (always)

[Chava]

Flexeril is totally boring...I think close-ish in chemical make-up to an old-fashioned tricyclic. My doc would never give me benzos. The pain killers are more crazy-making because they just mask the pain while it can continue to boil up beneath the surface. But yes, I would love to not need any of it, or more just once in a while....not sure if it's the meds or the constant pain, whether just dull or stabbing, that has put me into a depressive fog. I have to remind myself to smile at work, and then I still can't do it. It's terrible, especially lately because the pain is worse and I do feel really tired.