Have You Ever Experienced This?

[PureDogs]

Hello,

It has been a while since I came here on this forum.

I need to share this with you and see if I'm not only one. Does this action is common with PTSD.

Warning - Possible triggers..

I've gone through tough time lately and dealing with flashbacks, anger, and anxiety.

My medications has been increased from 30 to 60 mg (one pill in AM and other one at bedtime)

Someone had pushed button and caused flashback when someone tells me in wrong way. I broke down cried, angry, and broke my glasses out of anger. After that, I felt better when I broke it.

Of course, it was not first time. I did that in the past.

Question: have you break something to get yourself reconnect? My friend said it didn't happen to my friend and may think it might be cuz of medication.

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Thanks

 

[Seasounds]

Since breaking things has happened, before the medication, breaking things is not likely to be the responsibility of the medication. And, on the other hand, you might talk this over with your prescriber, since if the behavior is increasing, it may be a concern that it is due to the medication, or due to increases in your life stress.

Either way, I've found that it is a good idea to observe and track behaviors that I want to shift, and get help with. Providers really like this kind of help; tracking mood and behavior responses to meds and therapy.

My medications helps me a lot, and they don't stop me from doing every habitual, non-productive habit. For me, instead of breaking things, I lie frozen. To change this, when I am angry, I need to be 'right there and in the moment', with myself, to choose a new response. The choice for me would be moving, while I express my feelings.

An idea and question: What can you imagine might be an option for you, instead of breaking things? Acknowledging anger, vocalizing it, breaking things that are not valuable?
(So you don't suffer financial consequences-glasses are expensive.)

 

[arfie]

Yes, I have done this, without so much as a pill or bottle to blame it on. Not always with things. I have hurt people. Some folks have justified the hurt I inflicted to other people as, "Self Defense" and I think most of the cases would even stand up in court as self defense. It is the "most" that keeps me from taking comfort in that justification. This kind of anger was extremely dangerous, even when I weighed less than 100 lbs (45kg). At 60 years old, I still believe I could do serious damage if I don't watchdog that demon. How much strength does it take to plunge a kitchen knife or push someone off a cliff, as quick as a trigger?

What are you doing about it?

 

[Friday]

I learned to control my temper by systematically breaking a crate/pallet (several hundred individual count) of glassware. At first each and every time I got angry I marched myself to the garage and threw glasses at the wall until I felt better. Eventually I could start to recognize that I was going to need to go out to the shed soon, and pre-empt needing to go at all by calming myself down. Lots of steps in between. Took many, many months. But I'd been baffled by my sudden inability to control my temper, and like most things, stumbled upon a solution -for me, at least- by accident.

 

[EmmaDancing]

Question: have you break something to get yourself reconnect?

Actually, breaking something has caused me to reconnect a few times. I'm not sure why, and I guess it's probably different for everyone, but you should try and pinpoint exactly what it was about breaking the glasses that helped you. Was it the noise? Seeing the physical damage? The act of breaking? I'd suggest putting a bunch of ice cubes between two dish towels and crushing them with something heavy, as an alternative.