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Have You Ever Googled An Important Action You Were Involved With?

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noooo sh1t!!! youre right! thats me on the tail. okay i guess ill be a googling fool today. "JTF lebanon"
 
Yes, the day a friend was killed. I used to read his obituary often. Ive been hanging onto the guilt for 3.5 years. I know he would want me to live on, but its hard to live with. The reason why I put my wife through such hell, trying to find a remedy. only after she left with our son did I see the pain. But everyday here in therapy, im getting better. God bless.

-Dave
 
Brother, loosing a friend(s) is one of the hardest things for us. I can only say that after 44 years, it gets a tad bit better, but not by much! It is hard to live with, but I would never want to be with out it, as they are a part of who I am....Always will be...

J R
 
I agree brother, ive felt responsible for his death since then. It was/is still hard to bear but I dont have the guilt I did. I know we did everything we could to give him the best possible chance of living.

An Numaniyah, Iraq. Then cleaning out blood from the trucks. I was numb, pretending it was blood from a deer. But i knew what it was. I can still smell the truck. It was like rust. Still hate working on vehicles. I do miss him though :(
 
When that wiki leaks deal happened I remember it was after we had got back stateside. I looked up some events off a laptop in the barracks on there before it was taken down. Was surprised to see it on there. I used to have videos of IED hits and firefights on youtube. Hundred thousand views. Military.com posted one of the videos "Double IED explosions flip RG31" in Sangin of a deep buried double IED strike before the fire fight. Guess they napped it off my youtube or one of the other guys gave it up idk. That FUNKER530 youtube channel hit me up asking to put the videos up to use the profit generated for wounded warriors. I agreed.

I even had people from what they claimed was National Geographic or whatever trying to use footage of my deployment to illustrate somebody else's stories. Like to use clips demonstrating w/e.

Shortly after I deleted all the videos as if it was going to erase anything. But it wasn't healthy getting comment notifications each day and responding. At least I didn't enjoy it. Saw another on liveleak.com, had some internet terrorist mother f*ckers talking all kinds of shit about Americans. Pissed me off so bad.
 
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Some of the things that are out about it, I google. Or related happenings, see how the more offi groups were doing, see if they got out safe, if there's any news at all. I don't know that it's always helpful, but sometimes it eases up the kind of panic over everyone I've known. So blessed be nets at times, I'm glad for it.
 
I've always been super paranoid about having my pic taken, for no particular reason (I don't have much of a soul to begin with, need to keep what's left ;) ). When I was in, cameras were a rarity / easily avoided. Even so, if I couldn't avoid it, I'd grab the thing and take the shot if possible. It's what originally got me into photography: realizing that if I'm behind the camera I'm safe. Added bonus, it's like this really awesome "freak out in public and no one notices tool". Because photographers are always doing all kinds of weird shit. Climbing up on things, crouching down below stuff, staring off into space, running off. (All to "get the shot". Snort. Sure. That's what I was doing.)

So, like 8 years later? My ex comes home from school holding a poster with this shiteating grin. I was on a goddamn USMC recruiting poster up at the college. Clearly not in blues. Spent the next few days throwing up with "must have been something I ate". I was still more than a little bitter at that point. And I could remember the whole day it was taken. I was wearing borrowed camis. Had been out in town, barely caught my ride. Dressing as we drove in, boots still untied as we were running across the Tarmac. Unsat as f*ck. He was 6'5 and I'm 6flat, so I rolled the sleeves wrong. Pic taken ages later, all squared away (I had one sleeve shoved up in my vest, so ish), but every detail of that day just hit me like a punch to the gut. So, so sick. I hadn't even remembered that exercise until I saw the poster, much less the day. All I could smell for days after seeing that poster was this guy's CK cologne and JP5.

I don't know what I'd do in modern shit, with iPhones and film and reporters. I'd say lose my ever lovin mind, but that ship has sailed.
 
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I decided to google some shit.

A journalist got me overseas playing spades at Ramrod. I look all pissed off, can you tell it was a losing hand?
Anybody else have the luxury of trying to sleep on a cot outside at Ramrod? Those f*cking artillery cannon's going off at night in the middle of nightmares. Lol. Rocket's flying over us hitting the chow hall. Or the Blue force tracker, showing chemical weapons threat. And getting told later it was just some one who f*cked up in the TOC. Who knows. f*cking memories. Ramrod was the usual stop before heading into Lashkar Gah.
 

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I decided to google some shit.

A journalist got me overseas playing spades at Ramrod. I look all pissed off, can you tell it was a losing hand?
Anybody else have the luxury of trying to sleep on a cot outside at Ramrod? Those f*cking artillery cannon's going off at night in the middle of nightmares. Lol. Rocket's flying over us hitting the chow hall. Or the Blue force tracker, showing chemical weapons threat. And getting told later it was just some one who f*cked up in the TOC. Who knows. f*cking memories. Ramrod was the usual stop before heading into Lashkar Gah.

Sounds a little familiar.
 
So this is a pic from a platoon exercise in Bagram that my platoon was doing. They had just completed the construction of a sim round facility where you basically go in and practice your MOUT skills. It gets recorded on cameras in every section so during the AAR you see what you did wrong or right and can do better.

Platoon Sgt is in the front, my team leader is on the right... This pic got a lot of miles because it looks like it was taken in some serious combat. I've seen it on recruitment posters, candy bar wrappers and SF posters for some strange reason.

You may have even seen it. But it kills me that as awesome as it looks, it was a training exercise, cracks me up, man.

Stooty
 

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I didn't think we had done all that much at Khe Sanh in 68, but I googled it and found, I think it's called the "Khe Sanh survivor's club", it's all Marines that were stationed there during Tet. Just so happened that one of our participating Loadmasters posted an apology about a cargo pallet that broke through the restraint system and killed two Marines. Those Marines were all over this guy telling him that we helped save Khe Sanh with our ammo deliveries.

Made me sit a little straighter knowing those guys appreciated it so much.

So, there are good things out there as well.

Sarg
 
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