Haven’t been here in a while :(

[Dynamic]

You guys are the best

Only slept two hours last night so total of four hours this weekend prior to that I missed a couple nights and have been living on Strawberry protein shakes. I accidentally said to my friend I’ve been eating protein shakes and they’re like you mean drinking.!!!

Well on my way to my new church I’ll probably have a snack there

 

[Teasel]

Rooting for you!

 

[Dynamic]

Slept five hours maybe

Feel weird like the aftermath

Today I can work on feeling better I’m off

Idk how to start eating more I guess maybe start w crackers I’m hungry

 

[Dynamic]

F

threw up

Im scared
:( I feel so alone and also hypocritcal bc so many things were better yesteady

Im just so hungry

my mom said peop[le dont understgand or know how to help me

forgive typos too tired

It feels like my digestive system has been removed.

I hate when ppl say just eat something!

Whatever this is inside me has to go

 

[Dynamic]

I ate one sandwich today and protein shake

It was hard but maybe tomorrow

Wake up (if panic, notice and sit w it first)
Have tea and toast (if toast makes me dry heave or worse I can have a bite of yogurt or something idk)

Then take meds and wait

 

[parrotthepolly]

Are the eating issues solely due to anxiety or do you have disordered eating?

 

[Dynamic]

Are the eating issues solely due to anxiety or do you have disordered eating?

Years ago my eating disorder from stress was so bad I had cardiac arrest from electrolyte imbalance

Now it’s been disordered for like almost two weeks :/

 

[Dynamic]

I just ate a sushi roll tho. And now I can feel my tummy tank is super loww

But I’m having good feeling return perhaps strength

Sleeping in the living room floor is comforting for someone reason. I don’t have to sleep in my room

 

[Dynamic]

I’m angry this might seem random but I was cooking and listening to a song the lyric said tho I walk thru the valley of the shadow of death (Worship) and I had to sit in the floor. Immediately. Like I lost strength and I started hyperventilating crying but I was aware and gently telling myself no im okay… blah blah blah

Things are shifting and I’m noticing.

 

[Dynamic]

My dad saw my wounds from falling and he’s so upset and gave me a big hug.

I ate more this morning than yesterday