General Having A Poor, Pitiful Me Kind Of Day

[KO18]

BF hasnt talked to me since Sunday. He was having a low day and spent most of it in bed, however he had driven an hour to see a buddy, went out and had some drinks, and slept it off most of Saturday. He knew I was not exactly thrilled about not seeing him at all this weekend so he told me that he would call when he got up. That never happened.

We have not spent much time together since before Christmas. He had a meltdown on New Years Eve (so we didn't get to spend that holiday together). I have done the "Five Love Languages" workbook and my language is "quality time". Right now I am not getting the one thing I need most from him. I try to give him his space but I getting to the point that I am just fed up.

I have a lot of stress right now too (I know he has it worse), but sometimes I want to yell "WHAT ABOUT ME!?"

 

[SeekingSerenity]

Hey KO18, we all feel your stress and your frustration here. As supporters we have all been there.

I put my foot down, and with her Psychiatrist as mediator we discussed it and she made the effort for me. What i needed was slightly different to you, but the same principal. It has made the world of difference.

We all need to look after ourselves first, or we wont be able to also look after them.

 

[KO18]

Definitely learning as I go! Over the last 10 years of my life I have become one of those people that hold in emotion... almost hardened. I am like Cameron Diaz in "The Holiday"... I can't cry... I must be some kind of weirdo!

For the first time with all of this PTSD stuff, the rough moments, I was finally able to let it out and cry... even yell a little. All in the privacy of my car in the garage but dang it felt good to get it out. Then I was done and moved on. It felt like a month of pent up stress all released at once.

I am lucky to have grad school, work, friends, sports, and the occasional glass of wine to distract me. This site helps too!!

 

[amethist]

Good for you letting it out KO18, it only makes you ill if you dont. Plus they dont always realise, know or understand how this effects you too.

Keep doing everything for you, it is the only way to go when you in this situation.

Amethist