He Threw A Glass Tonight....

[Cekuvo]

he threw a glass accross the room tonight....a full glass of wine. from the bed, clear thorough the doorway and it smashed against the wall over the loveseat in my livingroom.

i feel really stupid for everything i've tolerated to this point. this is not love. this is something like hell.

 

[Ohuce]

he threw a glass accross the room tonight....a full glass of wine. from the bed, clear thorough the doorway and it smash...

If you feel like this is there anywhere you can go if ya don't feel safe

 

[Cekuvo]

he has control of everything now. he just left for school, after that he'll go to work and won't be back till late tonight. he has my car. i'm afraid to just leave, for so many reasons, i'll have to leave with nothing. don't know ehat he'll do. i don't know what to do. i can't think straight right now to make a firm decision. and i have to see my therapist in an hour. i don't want to tell him about this, because i don't know he's obligated to get authorities involved. i'm so rattled over all this. i don't make enough to make it on my own right now. i just feel cornered.

 

[Bureb]

Go with nothing did you say? You have the most valuable thing and that is you. If you don't do it now he'll use that for how many years, no money no car, get a cab to the nearest police station an officer will pay your fare under the circumstances. Keep us updated

 

[Ice]

he has control of everything now. he just left for school, after that he'll go to work and won't be back till late tonig...

You can allways get financial help from the state if ya walk away Sometimes it hard to think straight when this happens ho with what your heart feel say to your self do you want to stay in an unhealthy relationship or do you want to be free to do what you want if ya need any advice you can messeage me

 

[Cekuvo]

he just completed the hiring process with the police department and is awaiting the start date for the police academy. i don't know what he'll do of i just up nd leave in the blink of an eye. i'm on the final step to get my orientation start date for a federal job. i just hoped things could be calm and stable for a little longer. he drinks every night and gets mean. i don't know how it's come to this. i've tried so hard. nothing i do or say is right. when i'm quiet we have peaceful moments but the distance and coldness has grown more frequent and intense. i try to occupy myself to give him space, i get accused of being dishonest about my where abouts. now he refuses to tell me his comings/goings. expressing discomfort in any form is ignored or an annoyance. it could be that he put his heavy leg over mine in bed and it's hurting or waking up to being pushed to the edge of the bed in my sleep. expressing my discomfort is ignored or met with a horrible attitude. he's not happy here with me and i don't know why he won't just leave. if you are miserable, why are you here? this is all so embarrassing and humiliating to feel like i'm being bullied in my own home....i know you all are right...i need to make a move. i feel like an idiot for taking a chance, loving someone sincerely and not being loved and respected in return. i'm so disappointed, we've known eachother over 20yrs....i did not expect this. he's not interested in seeking treatment for his ptsd so he drinks to go to sleep. this is so draning. i'm so exhausted from sleep deprivation and worry. i can't fix any of this. i can't think straight. i'm embarassed to reach out to family and friends for help. i feel like they can't help me anyway. i feel like no one will even believe what i've been tolerating silently all these months. i feel like no one really cares anyway and the whole world is laughing at me for being so stupid. i just hate my life right now and i'm so sleepy.

 

[Obu]

PRSD Isn't an excuse it is an illness and an illness that needs to be treated. If he is not willing your fighting a loosing battle. What he will or won't do isn't down to you it's down to him!!
20 years give yourself some self respect honestly if he loves you as truly as you love him it'll become apparent otherwise walk away, and keep at arms length.
I understand it's easier said then done

 

[Moguw]

he just completed the hiring process with the police department and is awaiting the start date for the police academy. i...

If he has ptsd then the only way he get better is to get help I suffer from it and I take it out on my hubbie I've been with him 18 years but where strangers you can't help a person if they don't want help I'm doing all I can to get help as I want to be the person who used to laugh and joke all I do now is cry I feel like walking away some time as I feel with just drifted apart and only there for the kids but I'm working on trying to change how I feel

 

[Ato]

Quote......"I feel with just drifted apart and only there for the kids but I'm working on trying to change how I feel"

I've been there, and it's not a nice place to be. I was working away from home for so long, and only got home one weekend a month, it took it's toll in the end.

I felt like I was just a "provider" for my then wife and two teenage daughters, I used to drive home overnight, and get all excited about being home again, only to be greeted with, "Ah! so your home again" like I had just been out to buy a paper?

It wasn't until I met another woman, that I realised that there was more to life, than just being a provider. She lifted me up and opened my eyes to reality. But our relationship was tested to the limit, as after the divorce I was left totally broke, homeless and jobless?

But, we survived, spent twenty three happy years together, before she passed, but I never did regret meeting her. Happiness is out there, just go out and find it, good luck.